29/05/2021
This operation has been one of the most painful; post op, at least the last one I had some of the good stuff to take the edge off! π (I was offered it but declined, obviously)
It's been weird if I'm honest. The first op EVER to not have someone waiting with me (thanks to covid) the first one without a hubby. Literally go it alone. Very surreal. Come home after, had some help for a couple of days, which I'm eternally grateful for, but come home as a single mum & feeling guilty that I can do even less than normal! Try your best to hide the pain, but just look like the lazy cow on the sofa doing nothing! π
As I mentioned the pain, it feels exactly like when I shattered my knee cap, except minus the actual knee. Constantly throbbing, as if I'd done too much, with shooting & stabbing pains but also feeling like it's so swollen the stitches are gonna burst! I know he had to cut a lot of things like nerves, veins, muscle etc.
I can't wait to have the stitches removed & then know that if it's hurting, they're not the cause!
I'm hoping it'll just suddenly turn a corner & feel less painful, but I'm supposed to do nothing but rest & elevate for at least 2 weeks! We'll see.
Thank you to everyone who's helped me in many ways, messaged me, kept my spirits up & brought me cake π (I need to get back on the bike!) THANK YOU