27/02/2024
Cold water ceremony at the weekend, I have been walking in shadow for about a year and intentionally explored deeper into parts I was afraid to face. I felt all the anger and frustration and observed habits of an old identity that in reality I need to let go of, and at the weekend I met the extent of that pain, full force through the full moon and water mirror portal!
I'm sharing so that this time next year, I can look back and thank this version of myself for continuing to learn and grow even through the period of disconnect. For those witnessing, I thank you🥰😇
I've had discomfort and pain in the throat for about 3 weeks. I am working with the Akasha to bring healing nectar to the wounds. These beliefs were connected to the throat.
💫 Feeling rejected in personal relationships, which made me suppress my truth, but now it's become pressing and urgent.
💫 I feel restricted in many aspects of my life. As a result, the anger and grief have built up in the throat area.
💫 I have had enough of being silenced by influential people. In childhood, my words were cut off mid sentence - never allowed to complete what I needed to say. I want to speak up but seem to attract hostile circumstances.
💫 I don't have a safe space to process grief or sadness, I suppress it and hold back tears.
💫 When communicating boundaries, I am often met with rejection.
💫 I do not trust my judgement when to speak up and when not to. In the past, I have chosen the wrong times, causing rejection or punishment.
💫 I feel ready to move forward, but I am afraid I lack the personal tools to do so.
💫 I have been treated in a way that left me powerless and incompetent, so I fear taking action without guidance.
💫 I have felt smothered by instructions and manipulations such as do this, don't do this, and if you do this, bad things will happen. This made me dependant on others.
💫 I experienced a fear driven childhood
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