02/04/2024
Infinite Love
Every so often there is a moment in time, when the love within me and the love around me is felt so profoundly by me, that the two realms shall meet fully in the forever, holding me gently in the here and now.
In the connection between the light around me and the light within me, the veil falls and it is floating in a suspended state of now meaningless being. We are this veil which masks the truth, hidden by a transient illusion of separation. The ache of individuality, the pain of which gradually reveals itself through moments of contraction, fuelled by felt rejection. The healing power of love, integrating difference with acceptance, allowing its expression again.
When we live in fear, we are contracting, not expanding. Hiding, yet consuming, no production, just expending. We are falling, not rising, we are losing not gaining. So attached to needing to save our seemingly finite, precious being, determined to defend the self which we created. We feel temporarily separated from the wholeness of our oneness with it all, by awareness that we are here in this form, then thinking that this is all that we are and this is all that there is.
So, we remember, this state of pure love, this place of pure connection. Time and space melt in a nostalgic reunion. The silent bliss we came from, calling us to listen. The stillness we burst forth from, inviting us to stop.
Like a parched leaf remembering the flow of capillary action, quenching its thirst from within, it remembers the sense of raindrops landing once again. I too remember and my heart opens wide, letting love in, drip by drip.
Like a silver birch, leaves quivering gently in the breeze. Its essence stirred, by the feet of returning beetles. Its trunk delighted by the effortless release of its peeling bark, layers of time falling away.
My heart now freshly exposed to the raw elements, the principle components of love in their absolute purity, flowing freely in each breath.
We begin to remember The Original Truth, which we never really forgot. Rediscovering all the Love which our pain taught us not to trust or believe in. All those connections broken, all those bubbles burst, suddenly reformed in the singular truth of love and light.
There is no me, because there is no you
There is no what, because there is no who
There is no them or they, because there is no us or we
There is no when, because there is no where
There is no then, because there is no there
There is only everything, because there is nothing
There’s only then, because there is now
There’s only why, because there is how
Because we are here now to see it, to hear and to be it.
Whatever the question, the answer is always love.
The eternal fuel of your potential, languishing in your unspent creative fire, branding you with doubts, scars carried with shame, hiding divine gifts under ego’s bandages. You cover the precious portals of your wounds, unaware that they are doorways to healing.
“Will I or will I not live as the fullest expression of myself, achieving my dreams, expressing my soul’s sacred purpose and sharing my gifts with the world?”
“Will I or will I not be too afraid to try, to make mistakes, to risk rejection, to be disapproved of?”
The answer is in the question.
Will I?
I will
I choose into my truth, into healing my wounds, into noticing resistance and releasing it into the light. I choose protection, until it is birthed into the safety of my love for myself and all else, the unconditional mother within, nourishing all with acceptance.
Love under will.
Not will under fear.
I do not choose to subjugate my power in exchange for my need to stay safe, to avoid the fear, the horror of not being loved. I will pay the Sovereign’s Price, for it is worth its weight in gold.
We grow in the space beyond what feels safe, the space that still is safe. Faith leads us there and holds us in the fire until we can bathe the pain in tears of understanding, forgiveness and gratitude, alchemising our gifts into golden nuggets of knowing.
Because the truth is, there is no you and there is no me… there’s only love and infinity ❤️
