06/11/2025
Things I learnt and realised over the course of my latest Ayurvedic detox:
I confused the destination with the journey.There is no place or level to get to. There is no end point. There is only a choice to walk bravely through experiences and to spiral upwards versus atrophy.
My body will take the lead and I have to follow. That means sometimes not even being able to do the most basic of yoga postures. The ego says push through. The womb says be gentle, we need you with us to heal and integrate, to build back strength and resilience.
All is mental first. My body didn't shut down by itself. My mind became weak. I was too leaky. I allowed my boundaries to be crossed, my power to be usurped. I watched it happening and became inert. That was scary!
I've matured in many different aspects. The ability to hold compassion for myself and others despite severe adversity. To not blame a soul, including myself, for the dire straits I've walked this year. To recognise that at times an environment can not be overcome and must be changed. Well done! The trick is to get there sooner. To discern more masterfully. If thats even an option... I feel like it can hear GOD chuckling away at that one :)
Good people tell you hard truths. They check in. They push you. They don't sugar coat. Family, friends, clients. They showed up, to remind me of who I really am, and that playing small was never an option for me. They supported all the way through, gently and powerfully. What a blessing!
Its all still integrating. Its exciting, humbling. There's a deep and powerful undercurrent here now that is waking inside of me and walking beside me. We're getting to know each other. Its scary powerful. But I know, I can now handle it. Thats what going through the fire does...the gauntlets of life. Its a reminder you can handle anything and everything that comes your way and perhaps thats the only way to truly step into self mastery.
Less f***s are given about the superficial things. I love a lean, toned and powerful body. I actually just really need a healthy one.
My mind is mine to protect, and to lead. Not the other way around.
Thank you for this precious life!