29/09/2025
Bok ljudi :) pišem ovaj post za sve one koji se osjećaju kao ja nekad i trebaju ovo čuti. Nekad davno ja sam bila osoba koja je imala užasno nisko mišljenje o sebi, bila sam u tome da ne vrijedim ništa, da mene niko nikad ne bi mogao voljeti, da sam najgora i najružnija osoba na svijetu. Bila sam u tome da sam dozvoljavala svima i svakom da postupanju samnom kako žele, da bi dobila onu mrvicu ljubavi i pažnje, zapravo da dožive da postojim. Moj odnos sam sa sobom je bio takav da sam sama sebe pljuvala, ponižavala, osuđivala, povrijeđivala. Nisam vjerovala da mogu ili zaslužujem imati išta dobro. Bila sam nasilnik sama sebi, u svom vlastitom umu stvorila sam pakao. U isto vrijeme čekala sam i nadala se da će mi netko ili nešto pokazati da sam u krivu, da zaslužujem nešto dobro, da će to netko drugi shvatiti. Ali ljudi, ja sam ta koja je to trebala shvatiti. Onoga trenutka kad sam osvijestila da sam ja ta koja dozvoljava ljudima da se tako odnose prema meni, stvari su se počele mijenjati. To je bio trenutak kad mi je svemir, Stvoritelj, Bog kako god to želite nazvati poslao u život moju divnu učiteljicu Marinu koja mi je pomogla uvidjeti kako zapravo sve počinje od mene. Koja mi je pomogla proditi neke duboke traume, rupe bez dna u koje je moj um bio upao. Jer sam ja bila spremna i odlučila prestati se samosažaljevati i sagledati u samu sebe. Od te Meri tamo došla sam u jednu sretnu Meri koja zna da zaslužuje voljeti i biti voljena, Meri koja zna da vrijedi i ima svrhu i poantu na ovom svijetu. U Meri koja je shvatila da njeni roditelji nisu savršeni ali da ona zbog toga ne treba ostati u tome što je proživjela cijeli život. Da ima pravo i moć stvoriti sebi drugačiji život, svoj život, svoj put. U Meri koja razumije da svi griješimo i da nije poanta gaziti sebe i ostati u tom paklu nego rasti iznova svakoga dana. Najgore što možemo napraviti je zatvoriti se u pakao vlastitog uma i prihvatiti ga kao stvarnost kad istina ne može biti dalje od toga. Ne morate ostati u ovom zauvijek, zapamtite uvijek ima način, uvijek ima van, sve počinje od nas samih. I naravno, ljubav je uvijek pravi put ❤️
Hi everyone :) I’m writing this post for anyone who might be feeling the way I once did and needs to hear this.
There was a time when I had an incredibly low opinion of myself. I believed I was worth nothing, that no one could ever love me, that I was the worst and ugliest person in the world. I let people treat me however they wanted, just to get a tiny piece of love and attention – simply so they would notice that I exist.
My relationship with myself was full of self-criticism, humiliation, judgment, and self-harm. I didn’t believe I could have, or even deserve, anything good. I was my own bully, creating hell inside my own mind.
At the same time, I kept waiting and hoping that someone or something would prove me wrong – that someone else would show me I was worthy of love andsomething good. But the truth is, I was the one who needed to see it.
The moment I realized that I was the one allowing people to treat me that way, everything started to change. That was when the Universe, the Creator, God – however you want to call it – brought my wonderful teacher Marina into my life. She helped me see that it all begins with me. She guided me through deep traumas and the bottomless pits my mind had fallen into, because I was finally ready to stop feeling sorry for myself and look within.
From that old version of Meri, I grew into a happier Meri – one who knows she deserves to love and be loved. A Meri who knows she has worth, purpose, and meaning in this world. A Meri who understands her parents aren’t perfect, but also that she doesn’t have to stay trapped in her past. That she has the right and the power to create a different life – her life, her path.
Now I understand that we all make mistakes, and the point isn’t to keep punishing ourselves and stay in that hell, but to grow again and again, every single day. The worst thing we can do is lock ourselves in the prison of our own mind and accept it as reality, when the truth is far from that.
You don’t have to stay there forever. Remember: there is always a way, there is always a way out. It all begins within us. And of course, love is always the right path ❤️
