17/09/2025
An ode to my love and our time in Bali 💕✨
This trip to Bali was so many things - not only my first overseas trip with but also my first overseas travel with a partner.
I LOVED OUR BALI TIME TOGETHER - we did a best at learning the language and culture of the Balinese people, we embraced every invitation we received. We feasted on local food and we followed our hearts to unique experiences - falling in love with all the animals along the way.
Thank for you being a boss babe with the scooter and driving me around everywhere. Thank you for being my love ❤️✨
I am really wanting to share more authentically and opening about our love - however I have been battling with internalised homophobia for the past few months.
This comes and goes in waves, sometimes not being felt at all and in other moments I am overwhelmed by a shame I cannot describe.
Travelling through Bali we weren’t sure how safe we were to share that we were a couple.
I didn’t want to risk not creating bonds with the locals and Bek always strives to keep us safe.
The most romantic gesture I have ever received was this incredible flower pool! Which was overwhelmingly huge, freezing cold and so much fun! Although Bek booked the honeymoon package, she told them it was for her best friend - and that it was all a gift for my birthday. 🎈
This created a series of lies that we kept telling - in a world where I didn’t feel like I really had to “come out” because I felt safe with my awesome family and so much of my community is q***r and open.
The lies and the hiding - even if subtle - fed the shame inside of me, and it grew.
I’m so grateful for how my love held me through this - it wasn’t easy to face and feel and hold between us.
Until I broke through and told a Balinese friend who we were going to visit in his village - I was so nervous to share with him, to be rejected from a person of colour and the thought of being exiled from prayer, were huge and really real fears that arose within me. He was totally awesome though and totally cool with it and I cried with release. My capacity to love expanded from there.
Thank you Rebecca loving me through all of this - * continues > ✨