Red Serpent Tantra School Israel

01/11/2024

THE PAIN OF SOUL
When we really start to touch soul, to drop into our soul it can be a deeply painful process - it can feel like we open up a pool of infinite grief that may overwhelm us or never stop. That the grief is unending & can become all consuming. It fkn hurts.

This is scary. And intense. And often those around us have no clue how to support us in these depths of feeling. And our mind & personality will try to make meaning of the feelings and create stories to justify it.

But in reality we are touching the truth of what it is to be a soul. In a world that for the most part does not honour or even acknowledge that. To have been raised & conditioned in families, cultures & societies that don’t really, truly acknowledge that we are a soul of a spiritual journey and their role is to help us be more of our soul, to live it, embody it, in all affects including our erotic expression.

We are touching the truth that we eventually have taken over the role & become the tyrant to our soul - that our own mind & conditioning is the only thing now actually limiting our souls expression. We are the cage. We keep it firmly in place. We hold the noose that slowly suffocates the soul but minimising the space it gets to live.

In a true soul journey we slowly pull apart Piece by piece all the ways our conditioning or ego stops us from loving, from being who we truly are- the soul, the true self. It’s hard & painful work because the conditioning can feel like that’s who we are. That’s the identity constructed. And as we pull it apart it can feel like we are pulling ourselves apart. And in a way it’s true, but the self being pulled apart is the false self. So the soul can take form.

And over time if we keep doing the work, stay on the hero’s journey of seeking to be the soul that we are then the threads unravel more quickly and daily and hourly new lives of story, identity and patterning starts to unravel.

And all the pain of the previous suppression awakens. All the feeling of not being loved, met, seen or nurtured and nourished as the soul we are arise.

There can seem infinite grief. With the cause shifting moment to moment. Yet the hole seeming bottomless.

It hurts deeply & profoundly to see how our soul was neglected, or shamed, shunned or caged. By culture, society, family etc initially but actually in the end by us. To be this divinity born into flesh and not to have that honoured. To be pushed and squeezed & submitted to fit into nice pretty boxes that the soul can not breathe in.

So we need teachers, coaches, allies in this journey who can keep holding a point for our soul and our spark as everything around crumbles. As the grief threatens to take us all the way down. As we lose & let go of false allies and start to see with more clarity the way this world is. We need to be reminded to feel, to let it all the way in. To pray. To be touched by the innocence & grace that is still there. To remain open & connected and trust the path that we are on. To trust the original call to return home - to soul - to our truth - to our essence.

Thank you to the one who holds this point for me. And thank you to those who ask me to hold this point for them. 🙏🏻

30/10/2024

“WHO ARE YOU TO TAKE ISRAELIS TO PALESTINE” she asked loudly, but it wasn’t a question it was an accusation - and a judgement.

I breathed & felt into the words and the energy. The accusation. What was unsaid. What was my truth. What was I standing for & why.

I wasn’t “taking” anyone anywhere. Let alone taking Israelis to Palestine.

I was inviting seekers to join a temple. I was offering a temple in Jericho, Palestine in which anyone who felt the call and had the consciousness & skills to be there could come. Israelis, Palestinians & any other cultures/nationalities. I was inviting us to come together - to remember, to pray, to activate our hearts & s*x to awaken & enliven.

I was not a peace worker or “activist” I was a Sacred Hor feeling called to bring temple back to these lands. These sacred & potent lands who held temple in their sands & stones and who were sacred & pure well before ANY of us came along.

“You haven’t even trained as an activist” she said. “You haven’t done your peace work training, you’re not a qualified activist”.

Her words were true & for sure I was not claiming to be an “activist” or provide an activist event like a march, protest or meeting. Most activists I knew were angry & aggressive & I wanted nothing to do with it.

I liked the term sacred activism but it did not come from the same lineage or ideaology she was referring to. For me my sacred activism was offering land temples - gatherings of bringing Eros & life back to the places highly conditioned, smothered & sometimes overrun by a layer of human conditioning.

To move through the layers of human sh*t to access the land vibration & current underneath. Opening our channels to feel all the layers but with the intention of alchemiding it all in order to meet the pure land underneath. The land that was waiting for us. Patiently. Decade after decade. Century after century for us to get beyond our drama & open ourselves enough to feel her. To meet her. The land. The earth. The life beneath our feet.

I explained to her that I was nobody really, with no training as such that she was referring to but that I was just simply me and I was called to offer the temple & therefore I was going to offer the temple. And people could come if they wanted to or not if they didn’t. It was that simple.

I said a few things & genuinely encouraged her that if she felt called to offer something in Palestine to go for it. That that would be amazing, but as far as I could see that wasn’t what she was doing or was called to do.

I genuinely support people to do whatever the fk they are called to do. And I encourage people to follow & act on the deep call of soul & life.

What I’m not ok with is people wanting to dictate who gets to attend what and who gets to lead & hold the charge of creation (and the risk) when nobody else is stepping up.

Judging from the sidelines but not willing to step into the fire themselves.

And this temple burnt!! Big time. But that’s another story ☺️

(This pic is from the Jericho mountains, but don’t worry I’m not there now as much as I’d love to be)

27/10/2024

HOW DO YOU REPEL PEOPLE?
What are the tricks of your personality to push people away, keep them away or slowly repel them till you’re all alone….again.

Point made. Win to personality. Ego happy. But it’s not really the truth of what you want. It just repeating some old ingrained habit, reinforcing some false belief around your lovability, or lack of, that you can’t be your true self, that you’re destined to be alone, that nobody stays etc etc.

But the truth is you pushed them away - you repelled them. Slowly over time or sharply with one venomous spit you made it happen.

I’m talking about the conditioned ways that you have learnt to repel people that is actually in contradiction to your deeper souls longing for connection, belonging, relating or intimacy.

In temple we explore group soul & this invites deep, real & often uncomfortable intimacy, maybe more intimacy than people have ever experienced ed in their lives. So it’s a beautiful & at times ugly space to see how you relate to others. What are your “conditioned” or we say personality ways of relating or not relating that actually destroy intimacy. The false beliefs you hold that stop you from actually touching & tasting the real connection you long for in your soul & seeing that you have a “place” in the group soul too. As you. No mask. No bs. Real - raw - exposed…

REASONS YOU REPEL
Generally it’s for avoidance. It might be to avoid vulnerability, to avoid conflict, to avoid real & deep intimacy, to avoid showing who you truly are - that might be ugly, crazy, rage full, disgusting, needing, weak, tender…. To avoid showing up, being bold, speaking your truth. Can also be to avoid being honest, or setting a clear boundary or asking a tender request.

HOW DO YOU REPEL?
Let’s get real & uncomfortable here. Time to take a long hard look in the shadow mirror & see how it’s all about YOU. You are doing it!!

Here are a few of the main ways people repel others through the false self/personality
* BEING DISGUSTING - being repulsive & disgusting in body, attire, scent, touch, taste. Like the animal that excreets slime to avoid being eaten by prey or the skunk- emitting foul smell to be left alone. You’ll likely have your own particular ways of doing this. Track pants is a good one lol. Or carrying extra weigh or not having aliveness in your body & energy.
*DISINTEGRATE - basically this is where your there in form but there’s nobody home. Your energy & presence retreat, your consciousness & life force disappear and you become like a mist that’s barely felt until “poof” you’re gone.
*THREAT - threat can be overt or covert. It’s generally felt by others without necessarily having “reason” or proof of the threat. It can be threat or violence, emotional outburst, attack, or it can be an underlying threat of revenge “I’ll make you pay”.
*ATTACK - this is where you fight. You attack verbally, energetically or even physically. You bring force to push them away. It could be your sharp tongue, slicing words or just a barrage of sh*t that pushes them away. Usually the energetic fight or covert is the wirst cause you’re pushing a tonne of energy at the person but it can be done with a sweet, smiling face - yet underneath the bite is felt, the sting is there, the push reaches its target. At least with physical eexpression there isn’t the confusion for the one on the receiving end - event if it’s horrible to experience. There’s not the mind fk that comes with the covert attack.

One could say that these strategies can be framed similarly in the fight, flight, freeze responses - and this is a similar way to look at these expressions but that tends to me more in the extreme - when one is up against the wall. The repel techniques are generally applied in lesser intensity situations and to varying degrees up to and including the full expressions.

If you’re interested to explore yourself in this context come to an event - immerse in group soul, get some mirroring & insight. Private programs can also help with this as the relational intimacy & consciousness is a great foundation to illicit these reactions & patterns.

26/10/2024

“You are a piece of life, the rest is all arrangements!!!” Sadhguru
Ah this is so HOT!!

10/10/2024

“The way you become immune to the poison of the worst serpent is by looking at the things you least want to look at”
Jordan Peterson

Shadow hunting self & the world. I’ve been learning this. Deep end. Hard way. Disgusted & depressed at times. Yet awake. Awakening. Looking where I don’t want to look in self, others & the world. Bursting the illusion of naievity.

I first started shadow work about 15 years ago in my coach training. I tapped into my rage, my despair, my suppressed wild woman & slut.

I was focusing on myself yet calling in the sight to see what was unseen & what I didn’t want to see. Within a week I was unfairly attacked & attempted to be taken down in my community at that time. Within a week seeing things not only in myself but in others & the world outside me that I didn’t want to see.

Sometimes the reveal is devastating, ugly & debilitating. Other times only evoking mere curiosity or joy.

And yet as I see the worst I also expand to see & be touched more deeply by the best. The beauty. The grace.

My pilgrimage to Israel was a hard hard journey into the hell of human behaviour culminating in the terror stack of 7/10. Yet these holy lands - Israel, Palestine & beyond touched me, moved me, changed & transformed me with their beauty & sacredness.

These days I’m consciously exposing myself to things I don’t want to see & of course life is also doing its part.

I’m watching & listening to cultural thought leaders, watching movies & docos that make me sick to my stomach & more than that gently opening my heart to be touched & feel.

I used to avoid such things as I considered myself “highly sensitive”. These days I choose to drink the poison & let it break me open. Not to the point of overdose, but it’s not always my choice. At the point of OD that life took me to I discovered the will to die & genuinely felt this question of choice - do I want to keep living in such a world or not. I chose life. Full fkn on life. All or nothing. Fk you life.

This morning I’m grateful for the waters & nature & find myself smiling at dma dogs & old people. Tomorrow I may be a piece of s**t on the carpet crushed by reality. And I welcome it all. Non-duality. Maybe a reference for the joy but who I am to say it’s better than the pain. I surrender to life. I ask to be shown what I need to say. And I deal with the outcome. With as little whinging as possible - mostly.

Image from one of my favourite kibbutz in Israel overlooking an Arab village where the call to prayer magically floats up the mountain to reach my ears.

09/10/2024

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN FREEDOM OF SPEECH, DEFAMATION & TAKE DOWN

In this post I explore the difference between freedom of speech which I support & believe in vs defamation & spreading damaging lies about someone and take down/cancel culture.

I’m appalled over & over again when I see apparently conscious, mature people & often “leaders” in their area or communities participating or insiting take down action, or worse defamation.

I believe wholeheartedly in Freedom of speece, yet there is a way in current climate that this is stretched into defamation, lies, stretching the truth or creating a platform to cancel, bully or use take down tactics.

Sometimes it’s no more complicated than it being a business competitor attacking the competition, but it also spreads into person vendetta, emotional upset, ideological differences or mobbing and witch hunt.

You get to think that someone is an as***le, or that you don’t like their philosophy, style or even what they offer in the world. But you don’t get to lie about them. To spread false & damaging information. To set out to publically or privately destroy them, harass or bully them or mob them.

Freedom of speech gives people the right to have an opinion, to express that opinion & stand for it & even defend it if they choose.

Defamation is an act of sharing lies or false information about someone to the detriment or their character or reputation. Ones reputation is seen by law as a valuable asset & resource worthy of legal protection. You get to have an opinion & freedom of speech but not to the point of spreading false & damaging information or claims about a person (or business etc).

Now take down & cancel culture is a more recent phenomena which I think is underpinned by the witch hunt & mob - which has been around as more g as human kind I think but is marked & accentuated by the use of social media and far reaching technological platforms. The law is yet to catch up in this area unfortunately so people can do a lot of damage to the point of ruining lives, reputations & businesses and there can be little legal recourse. There is some anti-bullying & harassment law that touches on or covers this but very little is backed up with more than a little emotional support & a slap on a virtual hand.

Im seeing more & more people that I would think & hope have more consciousness & maturity engaging in take down or even defamation. There seems to be some latent & unexpressed energy inside most people who when exposed to a cancel movement or take down will activate & express often viciously & violently.

To stir the pot a bit it’s often just the “have nots” finding a way to try to get power over the “haves”. Unsucculessful, uninspired or bored people making the most of a chance to have a go at & maybe even destroy someone who’s doing better than them in the world - has more power, influence, money, clients or has the balls to do the thing that the have no under willing to do. It’s like the pack of hyenas taking down the lion together because on their own they have neither the balls nor power to do it. It’s unusual (but may occasionally happen) to see a boring person with nothing interesting to say or do be taken down. Most likely they are controversial in some way, making a stand, doing something bold & creative, are highly disagreeable or just plain irritating lol.

Mobbing is for cowards. Cancel culture & take down is for cowards. Hiding behind the screen is for cowards. If you don’t have the balls to show up in your own life or fight the fight one on one & face to face then get out of the ring.

Pic to show the crucifixion as one of the mobs methods. Though slinging mud & s**t is much more common.

07/10/2024

The web is pretty much up to date with events if you want to check it out & see them all in one place!! From New Zealand, Australia to India & Europe! You must be able to join us in one of them 🌹

There are a number of ways to work with us from attending a training, retreat, temple or workshop to engaging in a private personalised program, several day deep dive journey, sessions or mentorship with the school and our teachers/apprentices/practitioners either face to face on zoom or a mix. Once...

25/08/2024

What you might get from attending a training or program with me

Words from a student after 3-4 months in the school coming in as a complete beginner but diving deep!

“It’s very hard to express fully through words all the things Louises trainings have given me and the ways they have helped me.

Red Serpent Ta**ra School trainings have helped me find my voice again which includes learning to say NO!! and also learning to set my own boundaries. I found it was a place where I could show my true self while feeling safe and accepted for all of me.

I found a new awareness which allowed me to see and start to break very old patterns Ive had from childhood, and one of those being responding as a victim and also actually seeing that Im not my story and that my story really doesnt matter.

The temples have also helped me to start to listen to my intuition and my soul calling and to trust it and that sometimes you dont have to understand it in order to follow it. Ive also been feeling the reconnection to my spiritual side and soul and remembering sacredness.

Ive also learnt to embrace the unknown and even chaos and unpredictability more and the art of surrendering to life.
Ive felt a level of acceptance of me that I dont think Ive ever felt before, ALL of me and so much love, compassion and tenderness.

I felt safe enough to expose the parts of me that have always felt shameful and judged by myself.

Through every training Ive always felt totally safe and supported in every way by Louise and her team and if theres one thing I want to emphasize is if you even have the slightest curiousity or calling towards louises trainings then go with it and reach out to her. Dont judge a book by its cover, it’s not always as it seems, open the book and read a few pages or even chapters before you form a judgement.

Theres probably even more I can write but Ill end this with saying that Louises trainings have helped move blocks in me and helped facilitate changes that nothing else in my life has ever done.
Ive found Louise always to be upfront and honest and not afraid to call me out on my bulls**t patterns and behaviours when needed but it’s always felt like with the utmost compassion,grace,love and kindness.

So much gratitude and love and appreciation”

If your down southern hemisphere join us for:

KEDESHA MELBOURNE TRAINING | 15-16 NOV. RED TEMPLE & PRIESTHOOD.