14/12/2023
So I’ve been through a lot this year. I was diagnosed with obstructive sleep apnea, had my Briviact reduced by 25%, started a weight loss journey and have lost 12kg so far, flew to Barcelona to see Springsteen, discovered a horrendous fear of flying and claustrophobia, got into a relationship that I feel so lucky to be in, had some great moments with my grandparents, had some friendships that went sour, went abroad more than once, turned 30, AND my country went to war - we’re on day 69 and I had to fly back to the UK and have moved in with my boyfriend for the first time at my mum’s house x
The stresses I have felt this year have been astronomical, but the support I have had from my loved ones has outweighed it hugely. The biggest success for me? I went to see my neurologist at Queen Square Institute of Neurology for the first time since my last seizure almost four years ago, and we had some amazing conversations. We discussed my medication, my anger issues, my cycle, my pregnancy concerns (not preg, making that clear), and what my path looks like for the future. We decided to reduce my Briviact AGAIN - drop 50mg in the mornings and another 50mg in the evenings in one month if I am feeling good, and coming off clobazam completely due to increased risks with pregnancy and just general “I want to take as few meds as possible”. I am over the MOON. I still need to see an endocrinologist, which I was expecting and totally fine with, but what I heard last night was more than I hoped.
2024, I am so ready for the challenges you will throw at me. I am expecting a lot of personal growth, both mentally and physically, with a support system around me that I could only dream of. My friends who have been here for me this year through everything, I love you with all my heart and soul and you are my chosen family. To the people I am now distanced from, I truly wish you the best; seasons and reasons and all that s**t.
