07/09/2023
I’ve been doing a lot of grieving lately. Being the only pregnant person in a friend group can feel really isolating.
We’re all going through our own unique sets of challenges and no matter how happy I am this baby is on its way to me, it still doesn’t change the fact that I miss freedoms I no longer can enjoy.
Since getting pregnant my stomach has increased in sensitivity by 10. I cannot eat whatever I want or else I feel like im being stabbed.
I now prioritize going to bed and sleeping over going out at night with friends and that gets to me deeply and triggers an old wound of feeling left out.
My little one isn’t even here yet and they’re already alchemize my whole world. The maturation process is painful to say the least.
I share this to be real with you. I used to see pregnant women and envy them. Oh how I wished to be a mother.
Now I’m experiencing the sacrifice it takes to claim that title.
With all that said this is still my dream coming true. I’ve waited for this day for as long as I can remember. Every cell in my being told me motherhood was going to be such a crucial part of my journey. The soul growing in side me is powerful and going to change the world, I know it. I’m honored and humbled to be their protector.
Just 2 more months until they’re earthside 🕊️💕