12/04/2026
Postpartum Diaries: Day 5 - Anxiety
Postpartum anxiety and I are old acquaintances. Had it with baby 1. Had postpartum rage with baby 2 (yes it’s real, look it up).
Day 5 and feeling anxiety starting. Hard time sleeping. Anxious thoughts. Intrusive thoughts. Nightmares (common with hormone drop in days 3-5).
Intrusive thoughts: Theory is they’re a well-designed system - scanning environment for threats to baby. Personal experience: dads don’t have this vigilance moms do.
Lots of moms feel worried letting newborn be with dad. Not about sharing load. It’s anxiety and intrusive thoughts they’re having that partners aren’t. Hard to be told “let your husband help more” when you’re stuck between rock and hard place.
What I’m doing: Still in 3-5 day hormonal crash window. Not assuming I’ll have anxiety whole postpartum, but I’m at risk (had it before, have anxiety my whole life).
Body-based work: Gentle Qigong to flow energy, stay in body.
Somatic meditations: Not “clear your mind” - contractions in body, relaxing, breathwork. Specific guided meditations through different body parts.
Differentiating between anxiety feeling and where my body actually is in space/time. Using Insight Timer. Anytime I wake with anxiety, turn on meditation.
Triggered by being alone: Keeping myself around family and loved ones. Not inviting everyone over, but rotation of people checking in.
Touch work: Partner or booking massage soon. Need human touch, not massage gun.
If it gets extreme, see a practitioner. This is advice from someone who’s been through it, not clinical advice.
Day 5. Anxiety showed up. I know what to do.
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