26/10/2023
We are taught to distract ourselves with WHO we are, instead of living the WHY we are.
"Who I am is a glitch made for the distraction of why."
The size of who you have been does not get to hold you back from the Bigness of the WHY of you.
"The quality of our life follows the quality of our questions." - Melanie Ann Layer.
I have been beating myself up lately for the size of my body and attempting to shift it with all of the tools I know. And then Source Code from Alpha Femme landed.
So, I dare you to ask and then contemplate, WHY am I? I give you permission to stop distracting yourself from your purpose with the question of Who.
And so here is my contemplation of it and of me with it.
As I asked Why am I? I received vivid imagery of the giant hands of God held out open but together, and then heard this:
I am these giant hands; to hold, give, receive, show, shadow, protect, and have all of the biggest things. Not just material, but of others, of self, of love, of lust, of truth and truths, creating space for growth and contemplation, through shelter and inwardness, and holding up into the light and heat of activation.
I GET to be big. I don't have to be. I get to be big enough to show you you. So you can see me, instead of you. Except what you see in me IS you. You just won't let yourself be big enough to see it.
Why am I... To be big.
Who am I... Big.
To BE big has purpose, it's grandiose.
Big is a size no one wants to be or to see on them.
Big is the glitch to keep me away from my purpose - the ACTION of being big and all that it entails.
The incredible POWER in how my Bigness creates infinitely for all is overshadowed by the glitch of defining it as not ideal, un-ideal, dis-ideal.
Bottling it up doesn't preserve it (my power). It is a renewable resource.
True power, power of good and light, creates more of it. It IS the invitation.
I've been taught the "big hands" that I am is dangerous, too powerful.
Just BE it all.
That's what makes the "who" unattainable, impartial, non-existent. And when I give myself permission to be my "why", the "who" gets to just be "the greatest of me", regardless of time and space.
The greatest of me = undefinable as the "who".
When I am undefinable, I am unmeasurable too.
Bigger than imaginable and free of reference points OTHER THAN greater.
The Bigness of WHO I am gets to deteriorate now.
The Bigness of WHY I am get to show up and shine.
And so it is.
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