18/05/2025
In addiction I surrounded myself with people who didn’t actually care about me. I couldn’t see this at the time, couldn’t see the woods through the trees. I was unwell and surrounding myself with unwell people - stuck here in the dark and hidden away from reality… offered substances as a solution to all my problems in exchange for my money time and energy. I was constantly chasing… and couldn’t see the cyclical trap I was enabling.
Staying in these relationships required the invisible contract of using. Nothing was genuine and nothing came easy.
I can only see this now that i’ve experienced the contrast of true friendship - a blessing I never expected of recovery.
The friends i’ve made in recovery are friends who know and love me for me. No hidden transactions, ulterior motives or gaslighting.
It’s bizarre, that in this short span of time i’ve learnt to trust and wear my heart on my sleeve.
I’ve made friends who care deeply and know more about me in this short span i’ve known them, then friends i’ve known for a decade.
Sobriety is a long journey - and at times it’s confusing and lonely - Finding true friendships along the way has been both a treasure and a key - i’ve learnt to trust, love and share my vulnerability. I’m so grateful to have found people who accept me for me. You truly are a sum of who you surround yourself with 🤍
