03/10/2024
A brand new day Cindy Ann - I show up today for my son 💙🦋
Today is an extremely special day💕
37 years ago I gave birth to this gorgeous loving heart, free spirited being Michael John ♥️
My heart and soul are filled with emotion today of gratitude, love, compassion and forgiveness.
I haven’t seen my son for about 3 years.
Growing up Michael was full of laughter, love, kindness, curiosity for living a full LIFE.
His love for his family ran deep, wild and strong.
He was and is his own person 💙
As the years pass as they do, situations, circumstances form our way of thinking of the world 🌍 and ourselves.
Addiction is strong in our lineage - hence with being a gorgeous crystal blue eyed,young man and charismatic - he wanted it all - and was open to everything, and he went for it.
Along the way the addiction of alcohol and later on drugs presented themselves.
On reflection today as I sat and wrote in my gratitude diary, the tears streamed down my face for Micheal, my heart ♥️ so filled with love!
I felt anxiety and sadness as Michael said he had always experienced anxiety his whole life.
I realised I had anxiety attacks when I carried him.
One of those wtf moments of my gosh. I feel it - i see it - I get it.
Blessings my son, with addiction and anxiety in the mix.
I myself felt his pain along with my pain.
These past couple of years kinda kicked me to the curb - sitting on the sidelines, asking what next, where to Cindy?
I have felt shame and blame for where Michael is today, and honestly I don’t know where he is?
I do know he is experiencing living his life’s journey here.
I post this today with a vulnerable open heart ♥️ showing up for my son Micheal and asking for help, for this gorgeous young man to find his way back to Michael, the beautiful soul that he is.
My heart is sincerely grateful and thankful for any of your prayers and blessings not only for my son Michael, but for all of us who are navigating our way through this way of LIFE 🦋
From my heart ♥️ to yours, I thank you 🙏
God bless 💕🌹
