04/06/2025
It's been awhile since I've been active here because I've had to do significant amounts of inner work, and AI is now around, and I thought, why write when everyone can use chatGPT to write something or learn about something.🤷
Still, I decided to write something today about overcoming fear.
Just in case it's something that can help someone who will read it or anyone who is having a similar experience.
I never believed I still fear.
For one, I'm a very detached person.
Secondly, with me experiencing a lot of life's trials and challenges, it takes more effort for me to have fear than not have it.
However, lately, I found myself procrastinating, more judgmental, and more irritable than usual.
And when that happens, I know something internally is not in harmony within myself.
So I decided to self examine for my own self accountability.
The procrastination, I thought at first it was stemming from my detachment.
Then I realized I wasn't procrastinating because I didn't care or I was detached from the outcome.
I was actually procrastinating because I was hesitating.
Hesitation that came from fear.
And it wasn't even fear of failure.
It was the fear of change.
I got so used to my comfort zone that I didn't realize it already became a comfort zone.
Where I thought my detachment was just me being spiritual.
But actually it was already something different.
I felt the fear of change.
I realized that what I am embarking on will branch out to other possibilities in front of me, and I may have not fully digested yet the changes that are in store for me.
Have I overcome my fear completely?
No.
But my awareness of that fear made me accept that I do have it.
And that is always the first step to overcome fear:
It is having the courage to admit that what is happening is actually stemming from fear.
And having the will to move forward nonetheless.