06/06/2025
Plan D in English Version....
Looking back,
there were many moments in life that seemed like they should’ve been good.
A stable job, good friends, a loving family.
But deep down, I was tired.
Always trying to become who I was supposed to be.
I worked hard—because I was afraid of not being good enough.
I chose a path I wasn’t even good at,
but kept going because I thought,
“It’s too late to change now.”
I worked non-stop,
chasing goals, chasing the idea of becoming “better.”
I barely saw my family, ignored my own health,
and never once stopped to ask,
“Am I really okay with this?”
Then one day, I burned out.
Completely drained.
I saw a psychiatrist.
They told me I had chronic depression,
caused by years of stress, pressure, and buried expectations.
So I decided to pause everything and take time to heal.
I moved to Perth—
thinking,
“If I improve my English, I’ll come back and earn even more.”
Still thinking about work, even then.
But what I found was so much more than that.
I stepped out of the race.
Smiled at strangers.
Learned that I don’t need to be great all the time to be worthy.
I experienced my first real love.
Made friends from all over the world—
no competition, no pressure.
Just life, at a pace that felt like me.
Everything felt like it was finally falling into place—
until the day I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
Everything stopped.
I had to undergo surgery,
and accept that I would no longer be able to have children.
And face the heartbreaking truth
that the love I had… might not make it through this with me.
It was painful—
because life had taken a completely different turn.
But in the collapse of everything I once planned,
I somehow found my way home.
I learned to sit with myself—without judgment.
And received hugs from my family—tighter than ever.
So if you’re feeling lost, tired, or uncertain right now,
please know this: You’re not alone.
There’s no need to rush your healing.
Just be honest with yourself. That’s more than enough.