28/07/2021
🌻 Since learning how to make flower essences, I kept thinking about doing one with sunflowers. But the only thing I knew about them was that they signified sadness in Victorian flower language and therefore not recommended for weddings 😔
I mean, well, yes, sadness and I are no strangers but why did my head and heart want more of it?
Today, we made flower essences at my internship and of course, the first flower that popped into my mind was the sunflower.
Whyyyy, brain, why make me so sad, girl? 😩
But when you’re getting a message that often, you have to listen to it so I did it. I asked a sunflower plant if I could harvest one of her blossoms and she gently nodded yes in a windless breeze (true story.) I was torn between one that was lower and looking down and one on the tallest stalk, looking up. I thought, go for the tall one because the one looking down made me feel sad and I needed less sadness in my life, not more.
However, when I went to pick the tall blossom, it fell down to the earth so seems like I needed that downward energy too 🤷🏻♀️
The essence has been made and is waiting for use so I felt like it was time to research and find out what it actually supports (besides sadness,) and discovered that my head and heart knew what they were talking about all along.
It addresses lack of confidence, fear of failure, fear of success (a real thing,) indecision in career and path, and all around strength-building and grounding.
I’m not going to lie, the past month has been an interesting journey for me as I assessed and re-assesses my purpose, my abilities, my goals, and my dreams. (Why I’ve been so quiet lately.) What I thought I wanted a few months ago had been heavily influenced by external factors and a deep-seated fear of causing harm.
I kept thinking of sunflower as sadness because it was shining a light on my own sadness.
If something keeps showing up for you, popping into your head, and just annoying you, the moral of the story is, listen. Listen, sit, breathe, listen again, and thank yourself for watching out for yourself.
What are flower essences? See comment ⬇️
[id: My hand holding a sunflower blossom in glass bowl over grass.]