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Confessions From A Baddie, 503 Douglas Drive, Ashland, MO (2025)

04/27/2025

BPD what’s it’s like for me anyways is living hell.

I have been told I need to read the book “I hate you don’t leave” maybe one day soon I will.

Let me just say this I am in a manic mood. So much has happened and I’m overwhelmed overstimulated and above all left alone to deal with it all. Because if I talk about my mental illness then it’s a burden to others like damn do you have anything else to talk about. Yeah I wish but no. lol

The thing is people say it can be managed it can be cured to a degree. But let’s face the facts BPD doesn’t ever just go away.

So my questiontion Is is it selfish forr aimeone with BPD to have any kinds of relationships withth anyonee like family friends loved ones. Is it bettered to self isolate? Im being for real right now guys.

How the f**k can BPD people be treated as if were unloveable due to our own mind. Are we really beyond being fixed.

03/26/2025

This is about adoption! Close to 7 years ago I had given birth to a beautiful healthy babygirl. I was at a point in life where I was having a hard enough time as is dealing with everyday life on top of already being a mother and my mental health was not in the best place. My home life wasn’t the best place for her. I knew I had to do better. For numerous reasons I was able to let a man Oman who can’t have children of her own adopt my child. In hopes she would give her a better life. A life where she isn’t influenced by the bad blood of the ones who raised me. I wanted to keep her safe so she wouldn’t be like me or my bio mother.

My mother tried to confirm me to be who she wanted me to be and forced me to live her ways. She did not give me choices on what I could wear or what clothes I could buy. She wasn’t a good mother she didn’t even try and I didn’t want to be like her or have my child around her.

All these choices I’ve made was to keep her safe.

When I can I go out and see her and each time I leave it gets harder and harder to leave. The emotions flood in and take over. This trip has been the hardest yet. Because I seen the same pain and the same problems I and my kids and my cousins and my aunts and my grandparents had. It’s really hard to see everything I have tried to do which was supposed to be for the better so she wasn’t tainted by people around me like I was. Yet she is exactly like me when I was a child. Which isnt a good thing. It’s scary. Because I would lie just to get my brother or others beaten or say mean things to hurt other so they would feel the pain I’m feeling. I’m still trying to figure that part out in life. I’ve gotten better over time yet to see the same things from one of my children who is t a ven influenced my me or the people I grew up with.

I’ve come to the conclusion that it doesn’t matter the traumas that has happened in not just your life but the ones who started the family tree. It’s passed down I’m through generations and each trauma is embedded into our dna.

There will be more to come with this. I’m sorry if it’s all over the place but I’m living it right now and I’m spending my last day of the trip with her. Which is always the hardest to bear. Because it’s like she driving off for the first time all over again but it’s me this time with the feelings and thoughts I have.

Signing off for the moment.

Drop some thoughts on all of this.

What have you dealt with that was close to this?

How did you get through it?

How did you not go numb?

Even if it’s not an adoption even if you lost your kids because let’s face it it’s it’s still the type of pain. It’s am not taking about losing a child due to death but even if the state of a family member stepped in to raise your kids. Or you stepped up and knew that hat was right for them.

Let’s get raw!

And go.

XOXO
Valorie

02/26/2025

Hey hey hey you beautiful Baddies.

Going live in a few hours to talk about the trauma I’ve experienced and how it’s shaped and affected me. I won’t be going into detail on each type of trauma just the time line. That’s what other segments are for.

Stay tuned!

02/26/2025

Hello guys!!! Sorry I’ve ghosted yall. I’ve been in a manic mood and shut down. You know how that is. Nonetheless I’m sorry for this. I not good at this and I’m very new at opening up to complete strangers. Let alone anyone close to me.

That being said tomorrow marks one year from my double mastectomy and chose to go flat. A lot has happened over a year. It’s crazy to even think about.

I’ll be holding to my word. Tomorrow I’ll be sharing my story live. Like I said I don’t know how this works or how it goes. So just sit back grab some popcorn or your favorite snake or roll one up and understand your not alone.

We all go through different situations and yet end up in the same head space and it can suck. But let’s do this one video at a time and see how it goes.

Don’t be afraid to engage with the what I’m saying and learn what has worked for me and what hasn’t worked for me or another person. Because just because it’s doesn’t work for them doesn’t mean it won’t work for you and vice verse.

01/30/2025

Going live here very shortly. I have been putting it off due to my own mental health. Sorry I’ve ghosted you all. Not intentional by all means.

01/29/2025

Why must we punish ourselves over and over for things we did and didn’t do to us? Why must we be so affected by traumatic experiences by the hands of others? Why is BPD such a nightmare?
How can it be healthy for anyone to be friends with or be in a relationship with someone who is so damaged and suffering from depression PTSD BPD OCD ANXIETY ADHA and the list goes on and on. So how am I to know what’s real and what’s not. What’s in my head or letting my emotions lead the way.

I don’t know which way to go. Do I go up or down or do I take the path less traveled or do I take a jet and stream line to where I’m meant to be. Idk all I know is mental health isn’t for the weak. We are not crazy nor are we unloveable. We just have to learn how to love ourselves even through our darkest times.

Food for thought.

01/29/2025

High you beautiful amazingly strong Baddies! I hope the sun has kissed your soul this morning.

I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while. It’s been one of those days, day after day after DAY! Ugh exhausting to say the least.

I will be going live later on today to talk about mental health and how it has affected me still to this day. I’ll discuss things I’ve overcome and I’ll go into details on how I did over come them.

Now please keep in mind my brain is all over the place. I may not say the right words all the right and that’s okay. lol 😝

I’m hoping to do this this afternoon. If you can’t make the live show please feel free to watch it when you can and Aplease please PLEASE engage ask questions no matter the question or how deep or silly.

Let’s get RAW

01/21/2025

Seasonal depression

Growing up my mother had the worst case of seasonal depression I’ve ever seen. It was hard and still is hard to deal with her around this time every year. I wasn’t taught how to cope I was just taught what not to do. My mother has A LOT of mental health issues that has caused so many problems for anyone close to her.

I’ve watched her go through days of depression and days of anger and depression on top of depression. Why I never understood old as a child. As an adult I get it totally. Sad and tragic yet it’s how the cards were dealt. She dwells and I dwell half the time just not as much as her.

She wouldn’t want to go out or go to work or cook dinner. She would end up ghosting her family days sometimes weeks at a time. Taking any form money from anyone. It didn’t matter. She would beg others for stuff that had “broken” and more. She let her thoughts beat her down. I didn’t want to be like that.

I don’t know much about happiness but I do know what it’s not.

Seasonal depression is not for the weak.

01/21/2025

Ah ha ha ha good ole BPD. How can we explain this to our partners when we don’t even understand it ourselves?

I personally feel like I’m in a glass stand up case and I see everything going down but I can’t stop myself. I can only pick up the pieces once the episode is done.

Sometimes I’m able to think of something that brings my heart joy. Puppies and kittens jumping and playing in an open field just having a joyful time.

Another coping mechanism that helped me is close your eyes and take three breaths then open your eyes and find three colors. Then three sounds. Your body is focused while your mind is distracted.

Another good one I like to use is sour skittles. Yum 🤤 same reason as above it distracts your mind and you can focus on the now. Not the possibilities.

01/21/2025

So after I had my double mastectomy I didn’t want to get out of bed. I would stay in ed and cry my eyes out. Then I would get up and take a shower. Doing those four things really helped me get my day started.

I woke up.

I cried the pain away.

I got out of bed

I took a shower to cleans the bad thoughts that was feeding to go down the drain.

Doing these few things may seem simple. Yet it seemed like the hardest thang for me to do.

Waking up wondering why I’m even waking up why didn’t you call me home God? What is my purpose?

I wasn’t meant to ask why or even wonder why. I just needed to trust the process.

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