Audra Leigh

Audra Leigh Writer. Speaker. Advocate. I lived with PMDD for 30 years before finding real answers — so I wrote the book myself. Nothing here is softened for comfort.

I heal out loud because I was so very lost in the silence. Healing Was the First Chapter—Thriving Is the Rest of the Story.

05/31/2026

There’s no bottling up emotions here.

05/30/2026

Can you feel it?

05/29/2026

Bell jalapeño cheddar sourdough :) I have a cottage bakery that’s open one day a week.

05/28/2026

I have carried so much shame for this -

You spray painted my car because I either fu**ed you… or I didn’t.

You knew I had a 2 year old that I was the sole parent of.

You knew that she was stolen from my arms at the hospital and only returned because I FOUGHT for her.

You had to have known…or you were a fu***ng woman. I thought you were a boy that I said ‘no’ to or ignored. I thought I ghosted you and you took revenge because of it. I thought he was your soulmate and I interfered…

It was always my fault, I thought. You made me feel like it was fault… for your terrible behavior.

It’s interesting.

I typed those previous words without thinking - just letting my thumbs play with this ridiculous keyboard on a flat screen that must be channeling or downloading or “in the flow” of the energy.

I choose to call it an…epiphany — this is a “god” moment where Audra no longer exists but to be a portal.

Just a few minutes ago, when this writing began, i carried the shame of being the person on the other side of someone’s torments. I always felt like i was at fault….

I drove someone(s) to fill up condoms, vandalize and spray paint my car - the car I drove my young daughter around in- the car they spray painted ‘SLUT’ on.

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That was just the beginning…

…you called me every single night for two years. You forced me to move and change my number. You created a Craigslist ad soliciting my name, and my body and my home address. You used my wedding website picture. You used pictures that were NOT me!

I disappointed you and you tortured me.

You were the worst of all of us.

…

I forgive you.

You could have come up to me. Let me go. Anything but torture me.

But you chose the worst of you.

And I forgive you.

I thank you for it.

I love you.

I hope you have forgiven yourself.

…
This is a lot to process tonight.

Will you just leave me a 😱 if you happen to listen and read all this? I know I used an emoji but I’m not Ai. I’m sitting in my kitchen alone with my son gaming in his room, and my cat in my lap. I’d love to know another human actually read my human words. My human story.

If that’s you out there, thank you for staying strong in this world. I’m not the only one that needs you.

Audra

05/28/2026

I started with one. Did it consistently for 6 months. It took awhile for the habit to become..well, a habit. I could tell very quickly the days that I didn’t say it. My mental health was more focused on the negative. So I printed it out. Set a reminder on my phone. Did whatever I could to remember to say it before getting out of bed. As time went on, I began remembering to say it before I opened my eyes. When it became second nature, I added another. Both simple, but both incredibly powerful to me. When that one became part of the ritual, I added another third. And that is where you find me today. They may change in the future, but for now, these continue to rewire my brain from automatically negative to looking for the positive. Hope this helps someone out there because it truly helped me.

05/27/2026

Say it 3x. Say it first thing in the morning before anything else. Say it even when the feelings upon you are heavy. Say it everyday. And then, watch for the miracles. Celebrate all of them. Even the seemingly smallest.

05/26/2026

Updating my support team ♥️ I’m so thankful for all of you. Truly.

05/26/2026

I am back in business baby. My nervous system is stronger and more regulated than ever. Thrilled to be sharing this journey with you all. In realtime. The ups. The downs. All of it. For those still in the hermit stage, the land in between…we need to see the journey to the other side. That’s what I’m offering. I hope to see you there!

05/26/2026

Posting this from the same gym a year later…a year of using all the tools in my toolbox…and I’ll tell you what, I have felt joy in these last 365 days and even in my luteal. The tools work. Consistency is key. I’m at the sauna every morning. My diet is clean. I have a meditation and spiritual daily ritual. I train with mindfulness. I stopped using any chemical on, in and around me. I work with my energetic source to clear held traumas. I do hard things on a daily basis. And now? Miracles happen to me every day. There is recovery from PMDD. I am proof. I felt like I wanted to d!e 10 days every month for 30 years. And now I want to live all of them. I am the proof. Want my tools? I put them in a survivors guide. Link in my bio.

05/24/2026

There’s life BFF and life AFF. I can’t ever go back to BFF but it’s fun to see it. BFF - before free fall AFF - after free fall

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