03/01/2022
My return to Instagram almost came last week but I wasn’t quite ready. I wanted to be ready more than I actually was. Today, I’m ready.
When I find myself in a depressive episode I usually go inward, shutting out forms of communication like social media and feeling unable to answer texts or phone calls (so apologies if I’ve been bad at responding, it’s forreal not you, it’s me). This episode came on with brute force and left me with a weakened immune system, which caused me to get physically ill too. The world has continued to be on fire with hate and pain and it feels like it never stops. So I needed to take a step back.
I’ve still been packing boxes and working on the business, but I’ve been less vocal. In that time I’ve begun to really dig into my own healing process to better understand what makes a difference and what doesn’t when engaging in healing practices. I’ve been tinkering and playing with new ideas and improving old ones. I’m making changes to be more effective in helping my community in the way I know how.
I know the world is exhausting, and I know mental illness is exhausting, but I feel my purpose in this work. I feel my purpose in this space. I’m feeling inspired to bring you the best of me and the best of mental health care. So stay tuned for some big and small changes. Thank you for loving me and supporting me in my absence. It has given me the strength to keep going. Even when I didn’t want to.
And finally, if you’re feeling alone or you’re struggling with your mental health, please stay. Please. I need you here.
With love and my groove starting to come back,
Mal