10/07/2020
This time 2 years ago I was in a really dark place. ⠀
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I was having the worst neck pain in my life, debilitating migraines, pain and numbness radiating down my arms and I was losing the ability to do simple moves I usually could do easily.⠀
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The diagnois came back as severe spinal stenosis with an unstable spine. I was in denial. I rehabbed clients for years with this condition but I was half their age! All I kept thinking is how can this be, I'm too young?!?! I didn't tell anybody for awhile (except my husband of course.) ⠀
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I was having a hard time processing what the doctors were telling me, how this would impact my life and all the things that I love to do and that make me, ME. Facing the reality of not being able to do any of it again. ⠀
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My norm is being a happy bubbly person but during that time, a smile was hard to muster up and when I did it wasn't how I really felt inside. I cried a lot. There was a lot of uncertainty and deciding how to proceed and with my history of surgeries this was an extremely last option. ⠀
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The same week I got this diagnosis my mother-in-law passed away. My heart was breaking for my husband and family and everything around me felt dark, when the sun was shining I didn't feel it or see it. ⠀
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After 2 months of feeling sorry for myself and my situation. I woke up one morning and yelled at myself "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? You are a fighter!" And from that morning on we came up with a plan. ⠀
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1.) Find a team of doctors that will "fight for me" not tell me to quit.⠀
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2.) Control the controllable⠀
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3.) Start rehabing my body and get my neck as stable as possible. ⠀
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4.) Fight for it and never give up trying! ⠀
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That plan has paid off!! This month I'm going to try something the doctors told me I'd never be able to do again!