In Deep Soil

12/12/2025

Our relationship hasn’t always been like this.

Tears rolling down my cheeks earlier this week and I said to my husband, the only thing in our life that feels peaceful is our marriage - which to me, is still such a shock.

It’s the obvious part of our testimony that is easy to overlook because our life prior to a shared faith was a life of missed connections and opportunities. Both desperate to be loved and known, deeply rooted in our shared hurts from when we were teenagers, and never something that could unite us like Jesus did.

It was nearly a miracle OVERNIGHT. I’m telling you. Something changed in us and we’ve never been the same.

I think about all of those nights that I wondered if things were ever going to change and then, the miracle working power of putting Christ at the center of everything we do and how we choose to live our life and a new creation was born.

Despite the stress and difficulty of this season, my heart yearns for a love that looks and prays to look more like Christ. We fall and fail and always fall short, but we sure try… we sing, we pray, we dance, we praise, and we lift each others burdens….

Being together is the gift I hope I’ll never stop thanking Jesus for. 🥹🥹🥹🧡🫶🏻🙏🏻

19/11/2025

Don’t give up, this is him drawing you into deeper water 🧡🕊️

When you're in between the old and the new, life can feel empty, confusing, and disorientating.
You can feel as if you're flatlined a little.
Or that you’re coming apart.

Your old certainties are gone, and you're not sure how to move forward into a place of stability and solidity.

We crave certainty and clear direction, and so we struggle with this ambiguity and fogginess.

The danger is that you say 'yes' to the wrong things just to medicate and ease that tension inside you.

Or you become discouraged and passive, not expecting anything to change. You're tired of living with hope deferred.

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Take heart. All you can do is embrace the in-between-this liminal space - between where you have been and where God is leading you.

It is part of the process of transition and transformation.
You can't avoid it.
It is leading to something new, better, different.

Keep your heart and mind fixed on Him and the truth that you know about his goodness, nature, and character.

Be prayerful and careful before making decisions to resolve the tension you feel.
Be especially wary of forming wrong alignments to alleviate loneliness or disconnection.

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Expect that things are going to shift.
You will come through.
The wilderness is not your home.
God hasn't brought you this far to only bring you this far.
His Word and his promises still stand.

Remind yourself of His faithfulness in the past.
He has never failed you.

And declare over your life:

"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." (Psalm 27:13-14)

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Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
(Lamentations 3:21-24)

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19/11/2025

“It is what it is” - The midwest way 🫶🏻

Holding onto two truths is probably one of the things I wrestle with the most in my faith. When the children’s position at the church became available, I didn’t even think about it.

It was one of my high schoolers that finally shot it to me straight and said, “Mrs. Shauna - you are the obvious person, why aren’t you even considering?”

And then we took the month of February off to adventure on the sailboat. I guess this commitment made me believe I had to give up a lot of the other things I love, like travel and being on my own schedule 🤣😲

But God kept nudging and my spirit was stirring. When I got home, I had a valentine from one of my students. It read,

“Mrs. Shauna, you have the true heart of a kid” and I remembered the scriptures about approaching the kingdom of God like a child, and instantly the calling in my heart started to solidify.

These kids aren’t to be overlooked, they are to be taught and discipled and strengthened in their faith. These are Gods soldiers in Birkenstocks and socks 🫶🏻🤣 (love you guys).

And this nudge from a third grader allowed me to give God my yes….

I tell my leaders all of the time, “we should be the weirdest people in the room” and if that won’t bring down walls, I don’t know what will! Our insecurities don’t define us, they help us become who we are meant to be. 🙌🏻

God uses them to grow us and stretch us and change us. I walked through what I walked through to sit on the floor with teenagers at 3 in the morning in the middle of warhead challenge.

Somethings never change. ✌🏻🤣



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18/11/2025

Yes!! New mantles, new assignments, and a new day with our Lord! 🕊️🫶🏻

18/11/2025

How’s your
heart tonight? 👇🏻❤️‍🩹🫶🏻

17/11/2025

Do you ever dream of life in the garden before the fall? Maybe that seems strange to you…

But, in my heart, there are days that I just long for that life.

The freedom.
The protection.
The closeness with God.

Our “fallen world” isn’t the end of the story, and I know that… the plan for Christ was not an afterthought like I thought growing up.

My theology was this, “We live in a fallen world, I’m a sinner and there’s nothing I can do about it… and then soemthing about Jesus.”

I don’t say this to mock, but to teach and share how this theology was not only harmful to my faith but also not the completeness of the fullness of the story.

Jesus was NOT an afterthought.

He came so that we could live unified with our Father in Heaven again… reconciliation and presence were his ministry and I pray that someday, in the quietness of that garden my soul will find its perfect peace.

That garden is where I make my home, where I dream, where I seek greater truths… and although in this place, we have trouble, we remember….

“Fear not for I have overcome the world”

Until then…..

share the good news, tell all the world of the miracles he’s done, and let the Holy Spirit till our heart like the garden so he can give us the new life promised to us.

In it with you brothers in sisters,

Shauna 🧡

17/11/2025

Just daughters in a church pew on a Sunday morning 🫶🏻🕊️

16/11/2025

I’ll sing with you any day babe.
This is our worship.

🎙️🎶⚔️

15/11/2025

Your questions don’t disqualify you, they draw you into deeper relationship. 🥹❤️‍🩹

If I could go back and tell my younger self something, that’s what I’d tell her — with such gentleness.

“Your questions do not disqualify you from loving Jesus, he wants to answer them for you. Be brave enough to say what’s on your heart.”

I had so many questions as a young person. Big ones.

Like:
“Where were you when my aunt died?”
“How could you let this happen?”
“Why can’t I feel you like I used to?”
“Am I really too far gone for you?”

When I read them now, I hear an underlying feeling of doubt…. I didn’t know his character and his attributes that opened my eyes to a clearer picture of God actually was….. it was relationship I was seeking — not rules, not perfect, performance or worked based faith.

It was him. 🕊️

When I tell adults things like this now, they say, “you were a kid….let it go”

And it stirs me because yes, I was a kid but I was hungry for more! Deeper truths, teachings with meat on the bones, I was experiencing the Holy Spirit but had no understanding or mentorship….

Doubt found a foothold, and then shame…. Insecurities piled on and before you know it, I was going to worship practice and then getting drunk with my friends in a basement.

There was no fruit. It wasn’t sticking.
I was a sinner and so rebellion became my portion.

I don’t believe that’s Gods heart for us, and he has continued to expand my heart for our next generation and the need for discipleship — to see them as children of the Lord, sent here with purpose, ready for truths that sometimes sting.

What questions keep you wrestling? Would you be brave enough to share? 👇🏻👇🏻