12/17/2025
Re*****on
Our hearts are shattered…though even that feels too small a word for what we’re carrying. There is a depth to this grief that language can’t quite reach.
Ten hours ago, we didn’t know what non-cardiogenic pulmonary edema from choking was. Now it’s a term burned into our lives forever, because it stole the breath and the life of a beautiful little black puppy who had already wrapped himself around my husband’s heart.
One moment he was doing what he always did…nose deep in his kibble, safe, happy, with his littermates. The next, everything changed. What followed was terrifying and traumatic, and some things are too painful to put into words. What matters is that he fought, and so did everyone around him.
Our veterinarian showed us what compassion looks like in its purest form. With urgency, care, and love, they refused to give up. Oxygen tank in hand, a vet tech by his side, he personally rushed Re*****on to the emergency hospital while continuing to care for him, and we followed, whispering into the universe the whole way. For a moment, there was hope.
But the damage was too great. His tiny lungs were overwhelmed, and despite every effort, every skilled hand, and every ounce of love poured into saving him, he slipped away. One moment he was here, alive, loved, ours and the next he was gone, taking a piece of us with him.
We didn’t plan on keeping him. And yet, somehow, he chose us. In his short time here, he made himself completely at home in our hearts. The love was real, sudden, and profound.
Losing him hurts in a way we never expected with only 6 short weeks of time together. The sound of the other puppies feels heavier now. The ache is constant. And the grief is so deep because he mattered, because he was loved, and because for a short, precious time, he was ours.
This may be the end of the road for us because I’m not sure my soul can handle any more heartbreaks that come with raising puppies.
Rest easy precious puppy. I’m sure Koda, Babe, Olaf, Leia, George, and Winston greeted you as they will us someday.