Elijah's Tropical Sunshine

06/20/2025

Even across the space between us, my heart keeps reaching, loving, remembering you.

06/09/2024

Another year without my babies.
I'm still here but work more behind the scenes/locally. I haven't been to the coast since August! I'll let you all know when I go next. 💓

08/26/2023

A very special package about to be sent out. 💕

Keep this family in your thoughts. Their baby girl passed away. Baby boy is fighting hard in the NICU.

08/24/2023

08/24/2023

Truth ♥️

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08/17/2023

Thank you Barrett’s Bears 🫂
It's been awhile since I requested something for my own babies. The weight of these bears felt like I was holding them again. They have a comfy spot on my bed. My "rainbow" son occasionally gets night terrors and has a hard time sleeping. The past year he has been extremely curious about the siblings he lost before him. He often sleeps with one bear a night. 💞 He slept with Athena's last night and was excited to sleep with Elijah's a couple nights ago.

THANK YOU SO MUCH. 🫶

08/17/2023

One of the best comments I got when Elijah died was,

"Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful son and being his mom!"

As odd as it may seemed I wished I got more congratulations than the silence or repeated, "sorry for your loss". It just felt so invalidating. I did carry them. I did birth them in L&D. I had to have funerals. I had to fill out stacks of paper on cremation, burial, urns, headstones... They are REAL people. They were here.

I will forever appreciate those who congratulated me.

Peoples stories aren’t erased when a baby tragically dies in pregnancy, at birth or in early years. These stories are part of people and need to be told…They may bring with them a plethora of tears, but often also carry beautiful memories, joy and smiles.

What memory of your pregnancy or birth would you like to share that you rarely (if ever) get the chance to speak about?

One of mine would be the day we got to see Darcey’s heartbeat for the first time on the scan. I remember being in awe of that sacred moment. When I saw my daughter on the screen I felt so unbelievably happy and an excitement that’s hard to explain. It was in that space that I truly believed I was going to get the opportunity to raise a child and I left the hospital floating on air.

Over to you….

08/09/2023

Today you're 10 my sweet baby boy.
It's been 10 years since I saw your tiny curly blonde hair, your little button nose, your long fingers, your one sided dimple, and your smile. It has been an entire decade since I last held you. What feels like an eternity.⚘️🪽

08/08/2023

Thank you Holy Sews, Inc. 💞 Some of the kits going to L&D in Crescent City, CA.

08/08/2023

Please ask if someone has named their baby and if they answer yes, use that name in conversation.

Babies that have died aren't just ‘a miscarriage’. They aren't just ‘a stillborn’. They arent just ‘an ectopic’....they are longed for children.

If you named your child (children) that ran on ahead feel free to add their names in the comments ❤️❤️

08/07/2023

My babies 💛🩵🩷💛🩵💛🩷🩷+☀️☀️🌈

08/07/2023

Round 3 🪽💕