02/20/2024
I think so many times that I’m walking in my life completely alone. Oh sure, I know lots of people. Many of them are churchgoers, believers and people of faith. That doesn’t necessarily mean that my personal life and circumstances are connected to another person; at least that’s how my belief has been.
I’ve been through so much in my life. I can see that the circumstances I’ve lived through both good and horrible, there’s a gold thread that weaved throughout them. This gold thread is God, using my circumstances to grow me as a person, to further his kingdom, and to spread his love and kindness to others right here in front of me. This isn’t an easy to do.
Sometimes it’s hard to put into words the circumstances that are going on. The fear and the worry that I have, which is not of God, can overwhelm and overtake my thoughts and my feelings. When this happens, I can isolate feel very much alone; I am because I’m choosing to be, although I don’t realize it.
We are never alone, but we have choose to reach out. When I have in the past, I haven’t reached out in the most safest of places. When in the middle of a circumstance that’s overwhelming us, it can be difficult to know who is safe and who isn’t. I’ve learned in my life that there’s a big difference between someone who just goes to church, and is simply religious, verses someone who is an actual believer – person that walks, knows, and trusts Jesus (who was God in human form). The difference between someone who just has rules in their life, and the thought that they are “good“ because they follow the rules that they deem valuable, and someone who actually is a friend to God, who is the creator of all.
The second group of people, the true believers called “the way”, are few. God tells us over and over again that few will make it through the “eye of a needle.” Is it any wonder that we get a little confused? I mean, Christians, true believers, and those who don’t believe in God at all, we all mess it up! we all fall short! I can praise God, talk with him all day, and be short tempered all within the same 24 hours. So how can we really know?
The truth is, overtime, we can see a persons Journey – that gold thread, that’s weaved throughout their life by their actions and words We can see what they claim they believe to be valid. God says that our faith (not seen), is Shown by our “deeds“ or our actions. Overtime we can see these actions in a growth pattern. I call that the gold thread in my life.
Sometimes our gold threads cross. The truth is we don’t always know when we’re being open and vulnerable if that person we’re talking to will have sympathy or empathy and completely understand and be tender. Or, will that person turn that information around and gossip and condemn and use it to make themselves feel more pious than they should. We really don’t know. But God does ask us to reach out. To never stop gathering. To never stop lifting each other up, caring for each other and being vulnerable with each other so that we know where we each have needs.
This is the daring part of life isn’t it, standing at the Cliffside of trusting another person, another human being with the deepest scariest, most truthful parts of ourselves. Learning how to leap over the cliff and trust another person. It’s true, sometimes we fall and really get hurt. But sometimes… Sometimes, we truly connect. And honestly, in that connection is where God is.
Much love, Pamela 
