12/26/2024
MY BODY WAS DESIGNED TO HEAL. I TREAT HER WITH LOVE, AND SHE LOVES ME IN RETURN.
Trigger warning! ⚠️
I knew that I needed to do an Aroma Freedom (AFT) session on myself. I didn’t have a goal in mind. I knew where I wanted to end up, so I used that as my starting off intention. (This was a very difficult session this morning. All of my negative thoughts, memories, and mental pictures all related to the last 17 months of gastroparesis, gut infections, norovirus, lying on the floor panicking because I’ve lost control of my body, and crying because of not knowing how much more my body will tolerate before it actually stops working and creases to exist.)
When I thought of my goal and the likelihood of me attaining it, the negative thoughts that came up were: “I’ve been battling chronic illness for 32 years.” “My body hasn’t healed yet, and it feels like it’s getting worse.” “I don’t want my daughter growing up without me.” “I feel like I’m losing my battle.” The negative feelings that came up were: HOPELESS, SAD, and FEAR. I sat with each emotion in turn and felt them in my body. As I did that I took long, deep breaths of a specific essential oil blend. (This took a much longer time today as the trauma is so deep, and the feelings are so raw & powerful.) When I finished, I wrote down as many action steps I could take to help me reach my goal. I then crafted the above affirmation and said it in the self-hug power pose and breathing an essential oil blend which promotes self-love.
I’m now going to go about my day today. I can only take one day at a time and do my best. The only thing that I know is that I will not be eating any solid food, only chicken broth, puréed soup, herbal tea, and Ningxia Red. Hopefully, my body will show me love today and not vomit.