08/27/2025
The return
Beginning again felt like a betrayal at first. It was as if I was telling myself that losing everything was okay. And it is. I didn’t want to hear that though for a long time. When my mind was so stuck to one way it was hard allowing it to believe that another way was possible. I am still learning.
A few years back my wife at the time and I had allowed another person to live with us. We were trying to help them but within a week or so we practically lost everything. Our home, our dog and eventually an entire business that I created from nothing and a marriage that was barely hanging on.
During this time I moved back home and refunded clients close to 2 grand while they all left and believed a stranger over the work and care that I had offered for some time. The people I knew as friends disappeared. Shortly after I filed for divorce and spent years finding my way back home. I am still learning how to open the door.
It’s been about three years now since this timing began.
For a while now it’s becoming more and more apparent to me that I need to speak. It’s important that I stop hiding. I had been afraid for years to begin once more with the fear that I’d spend years on something that would collapse. But I’ve realized that no matter the length of the detour that we always find our way back.
Slowly but surely I am finding ways to embody who I am without allowing my mind to run the show. Ive met so many amazingly supportive people, especially sisters and soul family.
I am releasing and surrendering, even if only for moments at a time. While I’ve continued to create and dream it’s also important now that I allow myself to be heard and seen once more.
We are more protected than we realize.
With love Sarah 💖
Turtle prayer found on Pinterest
