04/14/2026
These were my party days lol. I loved clubbing. Loved the bars. Loved my drinks. And before you think this is “that kind” of post, it’s not. I’m not here to bash any of it. If anything, those were some really dope times in my life!
I stopped drinking in 2022. And it wasn’t this dramatic turning point or some big spiritual awakening moment. My body just stopped agreeing with it. I even tried a mimosa in 2023 just to see. Didn’t sit right. And that was that.
One thing that has never changed about me is that I was always the “hippie” of the group. That was always there. What changed were the practices, the rooms I was walking into, and honestly, how I felt in my own skin.
The “spiritual community” has created a very specific and honestly exhausting image of what waking up is supposed to look like. My body rejected alcohol. That was my journey. It is not the blueprint.
This post is for anyone still in that chapter. Or in the post-chapter. Still carrying a little guilt or shame about who you used to be or what you used to do.
“Awakening” shows up differently for everyone. For me it was alcohol. For someone else it might be sugar. A non-active lifestyle that suddenly shifts into running marathons. A relationship pattern that no longer fits. A job that stops making sense. It shows up in the places your body and spirit are quietly asking you to pay attention.
And I’m still in it. Sugar is something I continue to work through. I’m still noticing things in myself that I want to move forward from. That’s why I always say healing is a spiral, not a straight line. You’re going to find different places in your life that need some light.
You don’t need to be a “holy” person. That doesn’t exist. The real “healers” (and yes I’m still a little funny about that word) have actually been through real s**t. They know what it’s like from the inside. And no certification can top that.
