Other Side of Awful

11/18/2025

" Silence may feel safe, but it often imprisons us. Speaking-however imperfectly-is an act of courage and freedom.

Even if your voice trembles, the act of speaking can shift the ground under your feet. It can remind you that you are not powerless, that you still have agency. Your truth deserves air."
-Susie Spencer

Today's other side of awful daily support but it's hard to find hope in the darkness. Your voice matters. You're not alone.

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11/17/2025

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11/09/2025

Decided to go to a Trey’s Law luncheon tomorrow in Dallas. Can't wait to hear about the next steps for national legislation on helping sexual assault survivors after the work done in Texas and Missouri!

Drove up tonight and I am having so much fun! My kids made me a snack box for the trip and a playlist. And I stopped at Whiskey Cake Kitchen & Bar in Irving, Texas. Got the charcuterie and candy bacon!

Road trip to remember!

11/08/2025

11/06/2025

Many of the daily affirmations comes from my book, HAPPY ARE THE HOPELESS. Here's an excerpt that I wrote when I was blogging about having just became adoptive parents to our two kiddos. (I mentioned them in a previous post about going to the animal shelter.) The toddler days are over in house but I still remember.😍

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Observations on Parenting in Toddler Nation

😜Being a mom is…sweaty. Especially, when you have to carseat buckle then immediately unbuckle two five-point harnessed children because one of said children now has to p*e really, really bad even though they just went.

🫠Run amok is not just a passive phrase found in the dictionary. It is an action verb in our house. Parenting means you spend a lot of time leaning down with your bum in the air convincing a 4-year-old future lawyer to see things your way.


- #1 question asked by toddlers of all ages in our house: “Why?”

- #1 question asked by adults of all ages in our house: “Do you have to go poop?”

-Sun Tzu Art of War is oddly applicable.

😧Boogers abound.
In fact, one day, last week I passed a Kleenex to a kiddo with an insanely big bo**er. She wiped, passed me the tissue back and there was nothing on it. I have no idea where that bo**er went. I’m pretty sure it’s still lurking somewhere in my car, waiting to jump out and attack.


-All 4 Spiderman puzzles look alike when mixed together by an enterprising 3-year-old.

-Kisses to booboos are potent and powerful.

🥰I love being called Mom.
The word Mom has about a hundred different variations depending on how each child is feeling and the current situation. I’m learning every nuance of my new name. Especially, when it’s said about a hundred times right before bed as they come up with creative, inventive reasons not to go to sleep.

🥰Sean loves being called Dad.
His title has been hard won since these sweet babies are not as used to having a dad around. I could not live in Toddler Nation without my husband. He has a different approach to parenting but I really respect him and his ways. Together both our methods work. Although, one Saturday he did suggest the kids take their “quiet time” out on the couch instead of in their room and I swear I levitated off the floor and my head spun around as I whisper-argued against it in a bid for the adults to finally get some “quiet time” of our own.🥴

-Tiny hands give the best hugs.

-Tiny feet give the hardest kicks.

Parenting is a work in progress. I keep thinking we’ve mastered it and then I open my eyes and a new day starts with more challenges, lessons to learn…and bo**ers…lots of bo**ers.

-Susie Spencer

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11/05/2025

What's some of the ways you're recovering after trauma?

Here's 2 things I've done to help me 👇

1️⃣. Acknowledge the injury:

Our muscles hold memories. For me, as a kid, I was never allowed to acknowledge that I was injured. No adults ever acknowledged the injuries either. They were too busy trying to minimize what they were doing so they could keep it going, keep it secret.

2️⃣. Create a safe place in my home where I can go when I have flashbacks.

As a kid, I used to hide in my closet to escape the monster. So now, if I need to I'll still sit in my closet to decompress and process the memory.

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11/05/2025

The Will of Abuse: The Linear Life of Peaks and Valleys
By Susie Spencer

(from the Other Side of Awful series)

When I talk about the Other Side of Awful, I’m usually talking to survivors — the ones who have lived through the fire and found a way to stand again.
But there’s another side to awful.
The one abusers live on.
And the truth is — it’s not circular like healing. It’s linear.
They don’t grow.
They repeat.
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The Linear Life

For survivors, recovery often feels like a spiral — messy, layered, and somehow always returning to deeper understanding.
For abusers, it’s a straight line: a string of peaks and valleys.
The peak is the control. The moment everything bends their way — when the illusion of power feels whole again.
The valley comes when truth creeps in: when people leave, when lies unravel, when silence no longer works.
But instead of sitting in the valley and doing the work — they start over.
New relationship.
New story.
New mask.
Different audience, same script.
And because the pattern feels familiar, it feels like progress.
But it’s not healing — it’s recycling.
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The Will of Abuse
The will of abuse isn’t just about what someone does to another person.
It’s a structure.
A system of repetition fueled by ego, fear, and denial.
It’s the endless push to stay powerful, even if it means staying broken.
It’s how they avoid accountability by calling control “love,” and manipulation “protection.”
It’s how they convince themselves that chaos is chemistry — that if someone still reacts, it means they still matter.
But the truth?
That “will” keeps them stuck on a treadmill of their own making.
They don’t evolve — they orbit themselves.
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What This Means for Survivors
When you understand that pattern, everything changes.
You stop waiting for them to become who they pretended to be.
You stop thinking your boundaries caused their downfall.
You stop believing the peak means they’ve changed.
Because they haven’t.
They’ve just reset.
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On the Other Side of Awful
If you’ve been caught in someone else’s line — always pulled back to the start — I built the Other Side of Awful app to help you chart your own pattern.
It’s where you can track your healing in real time:
your triggers, your red flags, your progress, and your peace.
You don’t have to live in their linear line anymore.
You can build your own spiral — upward, inward, and free.

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11/05/2025

I used to forget to breathe. Like, literally hold my breath while answering emails or replaying conversations that didn’t go my way.

💭 Reflection
Breathing again is the body’s way of saying, “We’re safe now.” Healing isn’t about never feeling fear — it’s about teaching your body peace after chaos.

🔥 From the App
In The Other Side of Awful app, the Affirmation section includes grounding techniques and one-line mantras from my books like:

> “Inhale grace. Exhale guilt.”
“You are not in danger just because you remember it.”

✨ Spark
When the world feels too heavy — start with one breath.
— Susie