Deeper Water: The Alchemy of the Unseen: My Journey Through the Great Shift

02/12/2026

Reflections before my first chemo treatment…checking in at St. Elizabeth now! ☀️

Discovering the Infinite in the Limited

Tomorrow, my physical form begins a new cycle—one dictated by Stage 4 colon cancer and the start of chemotherapy. To many, this looks like the ultimate wall. A dead end. A limitation that strips away the "self."

But I have come to see that we are not the roles we play, the energy we expend, or the health of our cells. We are the consciousness that observes the dance.

The Myth of "More"

We live in a world that worships the infinite: more growth, more doing, more time. We are taught that authenticity is an outward pursuit—a mountain to climb. But through the lens of our shared existence, I’ve realized that the most authentic version of "The One" is found not in the expansion, but in the container.

Just as a flute only creates music because of its empty space and the specific placement of its holes, our lives only become a melody when we honor our limitations. My current limitation is this diagnosis. It is the "wall" I am currently standing against.

The Acceptance of the "Now"

In my design, I carry the frequency of Acceptance. I’ve learned that transformation doesn't happen by fighting the floor you stand on. It happens when you finally stop pushing against the limitation and start being within it.

Authenticity isn't about being "healthy" or "successful" by the world's standards. Authenticity is the courage to wait for clarity in the middle of a storm. It is the wisdom to know that while my body is undergoing a rigorous process, the "I" that observes it remains untouched, whole, and deeply connected to you.

An Invitation to Your True Self

I invite you tonight—not to look at my limitation, but to look at your own. What are you fighting? What "law" of your life are you trying to break through force?

What if that limitation isn't your prison, but your sanctuary? What if your "authentic self" is simply the one who can sit in the silence of the "not knowing" and still feel the pulse of life?

We are all points of the same light, experiencing ourselves through different filters. Tomorrow, my filter becomes more focused. I am not my cancer. I am not my body. I am the awareness that accepts this cycle, waiting for the mutation of spirit that only comes when we finally say "Yes" to exactly where we are.

Be still. Wait for the invitation. Honor your boundaries. That is where the music begins!

02/12/2026

Discovering the Infinite in the Limited

Tomorrow, my physical form begins a new cycle—one dictated by Stage 4 colon cancer and the start of chemotherapy. To many, this looks like the ultimate wall. A dead end. A limitation that strips away the "self."

But I have come to see that we are not the roles we play, the energy we expend, or the health of our cells. We are the consciousness that observes the dance.

The Myth of "More"

We live in a world that worships the infinite: more growth, more doing, more time. We are taught that authenticity is an outward pursuit—a mountain to climb. But through the lens of our shared existence, I’ve realized that the most authentic version of "The One" is found not in the expansion, but in the container.

Just as a flute only creates music because of its empty space and the specific placement of its holes, our lives only become a melody when we honor our limitations. My current limitation is this diagnosis. It is the "wall" I am currently standing against.

The Acceptance of the "Now"

In my design, I carry the frequency of Acceptance. I’ve learned that transformation doesn't happen by fighting the floor you stand on. It happens when you finally stop pushing against the limitation and start being within it.

Authenticity isn't about being "healthy" or "successful" by the world's standards. Authenticity is the courage to wait for clarity in the middle of a storm. It is the wisdom to know that while my body is undergoing a rigorous process, the "I" that observes it remains untouched, whole, and deeply connected to you.

An Invitation to Your True Self

I invite you tonight—not to look at my limitation, but to look at your own. What are you fighting? What "law" of your life are you trying to break through force?

What if that limitation isn't your prison, but your sanctuary? What if your "authentic self" is simply the one who can sit in the silence of the "not knowing" and still feel the pulse of life?

We are all points of the same light, experiencing ourselves through different filters. Tomorrow, my filter becomes more focused. I am not my cancer. I am not my body. I am the awareness that accepts this cycle, waiting for the mutation of spirit that only comes when we finally say "Yes" to exactly where we are.

Be still. Wait for the invitation. Honor your boundaries. That is where the music begins!

02/02/2026

Welcome to my new blog! I couldn’t decide if I wanted to do a blog on substack, Wordpress , my Deeper Water website or the Deeper Water page. It just became too much to figure out and my energy was leaving me fairly quickly and ain’t nobody got time for that!! So I decided to create this page dedicated to my journey with colon cancer.

This page will not be a bunch of medical procedures and Dr. visits post but will be my honest sharing of my life, my thought processes, my beliefs/philosophies of life and my love for life and love for those with whom I share it.

This is not a battle with cancer but an experience, an acceptance of physical limitations even as it is transcended through spiritual awareness and practices. I hope you follow along as I share my stories with you, as it allows me to be in a flow where I need not hide or try to look good but I can be my authentic self, at peace in any moment no matter the outward circumstances. And also remind you that you are not alone, we are all in this life together!