04/22/2025
I’ve been sitting on this news for a while… for a number of reasons:
Is this real?
Is this earned?
Will it be taken from me?
Can I trust others to celebrate with me?
Will there be those who would conspire against me… again?
Anyone outside looking in would wonder why would I have these thoughts. But if you only knew what it took to get here. Only a few know the years of pain, joy, worry, peace, cries, excitement, tears, victories, and struggle… so much unnecessary struggle!😒
I’ve been sitting on this news for a while…
When I found out, I told a very select few. I then waited a while longer before telling a few more. And then I waited for a while longer because of those “reasons”
I’ve been sitting on this news for a while…
Then I went to my counselors, my mentors, and my elders. I explained my situation, the current issues going around , and how I know this is impacting me . I tell others that “oh, I’m just remaining humble.” But really it’s because my intentions and goal to provide safe, compassionate, and competent care to my community is so important that I’m so scared of someone tearing away what I have accomplished so far with the Most High’s grace.
They reminded me of my goodly heritage, to meditate on Psalms 16… (and to not counsel myself 🥴)
“Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope. For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption. Thou wilt show me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.”
Psalm 16:9-11 KJVA
I’ve been sitting on this news for awhile…
…And I passed the NARM exam for licensing as a Certified Professional Midwife!!
All praises to The Most High God!!
What is next?
🟢 Submitting my information to the state to be licensed in Texas (pending approval)
🟢 adding the final things to my midwifery bag ( donate to my cashapp, venmo, or PayPal)
🟢 continuing my education in the medical field (been enrolled since the beginning of this year and almost finished with semester 1)
I’ve been sitting on this news for awhile…
And I’m finally becoming a midwife!!!🥹🥹