08/24/2021
Hey there π I know it's been a while since I've posted on here. More or less because I get so busy but I also had a bit of a plateau for a while. π« Which isn't a big deal, it happens.
I feel like my body is kind of where it needs to be or I just need to start working out more lol. I gained a couple pounds & last doctor's appointment I was 226.. Man that shattered meππππ I don't know why, considering I was almost 400 pounds at 1 point but Now I am finally back down to 215 and and I just have 15 to 20 pounds left until I am content Looks like I will be getting a gym membership soon lol. Anyways I wanted to let you know this journey never stops. And I am so proud of the people I have inspired, and I am so proud of the people who have inspired me. We have come so far And should be proud of ourselves.
I fell like alot of my self esteem issues stem from my past. I will always be that big girl that fought with her weight her whole life, who was bullied for being thiccccc not even fat. Middle school a guy won 200 bucks for dating me for 2 months on a dare. That summer I developed an eating disorder and a very unhealthy workout routine that kept me under weight for my body type. Which in result I had 2 knee surgeries in the beginning of high-school due to me then being too "petite" (Dr's words) for the position I played in basketball (post guard)
Over the years I gained the weight back and got to a normal size. Then BAM got pregnant. Lost 20 lbs fist tri due to being sick. Then GAINED 85 to 90 lbs. Then kept Goin. Was I happy? Sure, but with my self, naw. Iv lost nearly over 140lbs and I still see that big chick in the mirror.
Plus I have alot of extra skin.
Needless to say.. I'll try to be better about sharing again. Alot of you relate to this.
And I just wanna let ppl know ur not alone. And I need to remind myself I'm not either. Even though it feels like it sometimes.