04/13/2026
My nervous system was triggered today. This is what I said to myself to calm it back down:
I ask for myself a greater margin of acceptable error.
I give myself permission to make mistakes.
I give myself permission to not know.
I give myself permission to be afraid of speaking up.
I give myself permission to accept criticism.
I give myself permission to speak up and be wrong and accept correction in whatever form it comes.
I give myself permission to do what i thought was best and be wrong.
I give myself permission to do what i thought was best and not meet everyone's expectations.
I give myself permission to not meet other peoples expectations.
I give myself permission to be perceived as dumb or incompetent or uncaring or aloof.
I give myself permission to feel and observe the enegy in my body and how my body responds to this energy.
I give myself permission to be uncomfortable.
I give myself permission to BE dumb, incompetent, uncaring, aloof.
Theres nothing wrong with being that.
I have nothing to prove to anyone.
I am what i am.
And that may be dumb, it may be genius, it may be cold, it may be warm.
None of that actually matters because they are mere labels that create impossibly narrow borders on an infinitely grand piece of energy that surpasses and truly encompasses every label known to man.
I am all of those things and so much more.
I am everything.
And so it is reasonable that i would be perceived in different lights in different ways at different times.
Other peoples communication styles have nothing to do with me. I may like and resonate with some better than others, but they are all allowed and not inherently in any way actually wrong.
They are right to feel how they are feeling and perceiving what they are perceiving.
Their truth is valid and to be honored.
Does it cause me any actual harm to honor their truth??? ..
No.
My ego takes a hit, and it yet lives on.
My nervous system thinks i might be in danger, only to realize that i am safe in my bed, whole, unscathed.
To prove it, i laugh - which feels a lot like crying, but from this perception i can see the nervous sytem for what it is, a scared toddler child that may be punished for making a mistake.
You wont be punished, im not going to punish you.
Im going to hold you safe and warm and comfort you until you feel better.
*imagined cradling the toddler ego in my arms until it settled down*
You learned something new today!
Isnt that incredible?
You got to learn something new; Thats a powerup!
You just became more knowledgeable and youll know how to do better next time, isnt that so great??
Yes!!
Youre gonna do so much better next time, all thanks to this time.
Are you ready to go play?
Are you ready to go make some more mistakes?
Are you ready to learn more things??
Yes!
Its going to be so exciting!
I love you.
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