08/26/2020
It has been a devastating year.
We used to wake up with different and unique mindsets, hoping to tackle our passions and dreams. We viewed life in its most simple aspects, full of light, hope, happiness, adventures, friends and families. Our most troubled thoughts roamed around making the most out of our days.
Today, we wake up with common universal thoughts.
"Will I live today?"
"Will I lose a loved one? A parent? Are my friends safe?"
The world has lost its touch. Massacres, fires, wars, inequalities, destructions, injustice, a pandemic and then what?
How can one cope with the piling miseries of everyday?
For the world, I feel deeply saddened...
For my country Lebanon, I don't understand what feelings are anymore, but it's something close to "suffocation of the soul" and "Ongoing internal bleeding".
On the 4th of August, we witnessed one of the biggest massacres this country has ever went through and keep in mind that Beirut was destroyed and rebuilt 7 times.
Will there be an 8th time?
There is more to the story of Beirut.
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Beirut was one of the most beautiful ladies this universe has ever met. She was ethereal. For over the years, all eyes were on her. To describe her as cultured was an undermining term. To look straight into her eyes, was a defying challenge. Beirut was everything, everyone had ever wanted.
Sadly, Beirut was taken for granted.
What happened to Beirut?
Beirut was abused by war and r***d by politicians, by sectarianism, corruption, civil war, religion, patriarchy, terrorism, economic and social crisis, inflation, politicians, politics, politicians, politics, by countries all over the world and even by its own children and the list goes on and repeats itself.
August 4, 2020 was the apotheosis of the downfall of Beirut.
The story of Beirut may seem like another sad tale, that will end with a rainbow at the end of the road or after the storm, but not to me, nor to any other Lebanese soul.
The phoenix sheds its wings one last time, before losing its eternal flame to this vile reality.
I suffer with you and you will always be a chaotic kryptonite.
Today, like any other day since my waking life, I mourn .