07/30/2025
🐴 Happy 5th Birthday, my sweet Jaxson. Watching you ride today — so brave, so focused — made me prouder than words can say.
🎂 Time really has flown. Seems like just yesterday you were learning to walk. And now here you are, riding tall on that big chestnut horse like a little champion.
But behind my smile today, there’s something I haven’t said out loud…
💔 I wish I could’ve run beside you, helped you brush the horse, maybe even climbed up to ride with you — but my knees can’t handle it anymore. My weight, the blood pressure meds, the shortness of breath… it all keeps me on the sidelines.
🏡 I stayed home this morning, resting on the porch, while the trailer pulled away. I waved and smiled, but inside I felt the ache of missing another moment I should’ve been part of.
This isn’t self-pity. It’s just truth.
Jaxson, if you ever read this one day: know that Grandma loves you more than anything. And I’m trying, baby. I really am — because I don’t want to keep missing these moments.
Love you always,
💚 Grandma