10/01/2024
"Whoo 🦉 asked for this?"
"Wood 🪵 it be easier to go back?"
"It's hard to believe you're going through the ABC’s w/ how you carry yourself."
"Why did you leave?” U were 🪢not 'ready' for this on your own? 🤦🏽♀️ Couldn't you just change your mind?" Why are you so scared 😱 to be yourself, again? Why? Hello… r u really there?
"You share too much positivity 🪅🧘♀️🙏🏽for someone going through this."
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🤓 Listen. Lot’s wifey looked back. How did that turn out, exactly? 😏
👀 Did anyone 👂🏽 of any Scriptural Warrior’s waving their problematic ideology on a FLAG 🇺🇸 , hoping someone will rescue them while sitting around venting their difficulties?
🫣 What happened to ✅Jonah when “he” tried to evade ADONI’s Wrath & Will?
🤔 Do we need to sometimes know the struggles of the 🇺🇸SOLIDER’s & 🇺🇸VETERAN’s to empathize and inspire? Sure 👍🏽 However..... 🤔🤦🏽♀️👸🏽🦉
👋 Being REEL 🎥 and being real complaint-filled are NOTHING…the same, IT does get tricky because it IS hard. However...
𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 GOD 𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙨 U (👸🏽🐝 )𝙢𝙖R𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨...𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙨𝙪𝙞𝙩 𝙪𝙥! 𝘽𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 HE 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙪𝙥 𝙤𝙧 𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 N 𝙩𝙤 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 "𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙮"…SIR’s or Ma’am’s!🫡
He weaponizes the weak and weary. That's why we love a good story filled with the ups and downs. We feel that way too & we want to feel like we can do this.
🤸♀️ Remember....Nephi & his family wandered the wooded🪵 roads under God's guidance & protection for a long time, even when it didn't make logical sense to have done so.
⭐️ That's a whole other analogy we could use another tyme⭐️🫡✅🇺🇸
👂🏽Hear me out:
I did my fair share of complaints, making my needs known, trifling with what was.🤦🏽♀️😱🤔
I 👁️ spent the 🥈nd half of 2023 questioning why “IT” has been “the way” “IT” was and what I 👁️must have “missed” & miss-under-stood 😯 😞
Now 🙏🏽 👁️ I AM 🍴🍽️🐍digging my 👁️way out🤸♀️ & 🤲🏽 praying through whatever length of WILD wilderness I 👁️ still (🐝 still) have to go…with my crown 👑 👸🏽held high ⛅️ 🐝 beecause what is coming izz(I💤) far better than…where I wa💤 and could🪢not have arrived if I had🪢 been willing to walk🚶♀️🚷 away when I felt guided pray 🤲🏽 🙏🏽 2 2️⃣👀🕑🎬
I sat 😌🐒faithfully for 12 1️⃣2️⃣years 📆”a SLAVE” in trust, giving🤲🏽 everything I 👁️ had. Hoping🙏🏽 “IT🐍 🤡” would be🐝different. For 18 months, I walked in the unknown⛅️ after being told I 👁️had to 2️⃣🧘🏾exercise my 😎👁️agency 👣🫀🦾🦵🏽differently now 📆 or let it continue being the same.🤡🐒🤡☠️🏴☠️
I 👁️have 2️⃣to, I 👁️choose 2️⃣to, learn⛅️🎬🦾 2️⃣to follow the WILL of a GOD-FATHER or GODDESS (god fatter no more) who loves 🥰 me 👁️👁️and knows more than I😎🙏🏽🫀🥰🦾👸🏽🧘🏾
If I need a hand up every now and then, I will hold my “Army Warrior 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸Veteran’s Pride😎USA . If it's a total suck fest, I've already learned a few things about sitting in it.
What I 👁️won't do, however, is blast💥 it or dwell (give up ⬆️ up 🆙 my well-being )on it. PTSD RECOVERY ❤️🩹 IS NOT easygoing
It's just a *messy middle* right ➡️👉🏽↗️↘️↔️⏭️👍🏽🔎↪️⤵️🔛now.
I'm not 🎯aiming 🌈☔️🌂🌧️💧 to stay stuck in this chapter🛐💒⛪️📖📓📚
I 👁️have, after ALLl, (👁️PLAINLY) ✈️ plan to co-pilot 👩🏽✈️a flight with & passengers to locate who are ready go with to this next destination. ✌️ .............
I stay strong and do my best to be real while also remaining in faith, hope, and optimism more often than I sit crying because I know my highest version of capability is already in me and I know who helps me fight my battles 👇👇👇
I learned last year that I function better there! 😌
It's he'll on 🔥 some days and like riding a smooth wave on others.
Gotta suit up. Because we're going to go through it regardless. 🪖🛡🏹
