Fear and unworthiness took over my thoughts. The physical symptoms were unbearable. I was extremely sick and couldn’t leave my house. I struggled with vertigo since I was five years old and was always extremely fearful of another episode. I always worried about the next time I would feel like I'm spinning out of control. To exist, I drew on the strength of whomever was available to me. We know an
umbilical cord keeps a baby alive. It is a conduit for blood flow and keeps a baby close and attached to its mother. I had a proverbial umbilical cord attachment to every person in my family and friend around me. They gave me a feeling of security and comfort. I couldn’t drive outside of my town without feeling like I was going to die. I had to have a friend or family member on the phone to nurture me so I was able to get to my destination. I was paralyzed with fear. I was so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life that were always there for me. I went days without sleep. I felt like I was going to lose my mind. I would go to the hospital not knowing what was wrong with me. I was ashamed, embarrassed and scared. In May 2017, God orchestrated a connection for me to work with a life coach. The life coach that I was meeting lead to work for me that offered a substantial amount of money. I had an initial consultation with him and when I hung up the phone, I knew in my heart it would work for me, but in reality I had no idea how I would come up with the required $15,000. The next week, God reminded me of the gold metals in my possession. When I went to cash them in, they were worth exactly $15,000. I traded in my gold because I knew in my heart that I was worth more than gold, and Lucas would be able to help me believe and experience that about myself. I look a leap of faith and signed up for six months of coaching. The first week into coaching, I had a panic attack. My body was trembling. I couldn’t breathe and my legs were extremely weak. I called My life coach. He asked me what this felt like. It felt like I was in a tornado. He guided me into a visualization that brought me to a place where I was in control of the tornado -- that the tornado was NOT in control of me. This experience was life changing. My revelation at that time was that I no longer had to believe that anxiety and vertigo were in control of me. It was a part of me but not my core identity. After this experience, my thought life changed. I am now in control of these things and I can place them where I want them. Coaching has taught me the tools to finally love myself and connect with the Holy Spirit who lives inside of me. He has all the answers and everything that I ever need for a better life and Godliness. Coaching taught me to depend on Him more and less on myself. I can go into my heart at anytime and find what I need. I have finally cut the proverbial umbilical cord attachments in my life. My coach believed in me and taught me how to cut the dependencies out of my life so I can truly love who I am. He saw potential where I had only seen my deficiencies. I spent time learning to love myself deeply. I connect to my heart and have gotten so many meaningful revelations about my existence. I’m pushing my boundaries of comfort all the time to love myself well. I’m focusing on living at my highest potential and making all my dreams come true. Now I want take my gained wisdom, understanding and knowledge, and teach you to do the same, so you too can begin living a victorious life, as I've successfully done for so many people already!
