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08/02/2025

A Walk in My Woods

There is a parade at my house today.
Well not at my house and certainly not for me, but you catch my drift.
The jubilation of so many gathering is something I cannot relate to anymore.
So I head to my mountain.
Well, my mountain is a hill to you but a goal I conquered and now each time I return, it gets easier to climb.
I had to learn to go slow.
Maybe you were taught that, but I wasn't.
I used to go as fast as I could trying to cover as much ground as possible before needing to take a long break to catch my breath. Racing as fast as I could thinking there was something at the end worth running to.
I hadn't realized it just left me out of breath and unable to enjoy the world around me.
A world of hushed stillness in a shadowed wood, welcoming me into her depths, comforting me.
Sunbeams blinking through the tree line, as I make my way up the path.
I touch the trees as I pass, thanking them for their steadiness, their reliability, their consistency, their love.
A column of light illuminates the last slope before reaching the top in recognition of another victory achieved on my mountain.

I've been walking this path a few times a month since late winter, trying to replace broken memories made here with new joyful ones, and for a time I did.
But now, as I enter my wood of shrouded shadows, there is a hunger that thunders through my chest,
a sadness that won't surrender me from its clutches.
While much has changed, both in me and the landscape...flowers both in bloom and dying in the mid summer heat..
The emptiness.
the void.
remains.
This darkness at my core, weighs me down
a churning within I cannot name.
ever-present, never relenting.
I can't remember a time without it.
It pressures me to make choices that temporarily fill the void. a quick fix.
something to staunch the flow,
stop the leak,
put the bandaid on,
not addressing the underlying damage.
But the Band-Aids can't witness my tears or my darkness.
The quick fixes don't want all of me.
They only want the happy parts that serve them compassion and empathy.
The parts that hold them,
not the parts that need holding.
Only the trees bear witness to my devastation.
Only the trees can appreciate the beauty of My tear stained face.
I release the pressure of my waves
with a walk in my woods.

08/01/2025

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07/31/2025

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07/31/2025

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07/31/2025

07/30/2025

A poetrified version of my last post 💜

07/30/2025

This post is super personal.
Back in June I took a trip with my friends for my birthday. We ventured to Lilydale for the day, heading immediately to a café for coffee. Luckily for us, an artist, John A. Rice, had set up a residency there with his art which included his tarot cards. Upon walking in the door, he had a small table set up with instructions. .. write a question on a piece of paper and pick a card. With your question and selected card in mind, walk through his art show to channel an answer to your question. I was thoroughly moved by his art and utterly destroyed by the answer to my question:

When will someone enthusiastically choose me?

The Catacomb.
Then I saw his piece, In Search of a Signal and I broke down into tears.
I tucked that experience away and continued through my days consumed by the breakdown of a relationship that was not a relationship. After a few revealing conversations with the person, I dug deep down into myself. Really turning over every piece of me. I unearthed previously unknown aspects of myself and new facets to things I thought I had laid to rest. Ive spent weeks with complex emotions of despair, joy, anger, acceptance, longing, loneliness, understanding, confusion, and wonder, all intermingling to exume my soul from the darkness i had pushed Her into. I had once again buried my Self. I had buried my Light. I had forgotten Who I Am, all in the name of receiving a sliver of external validation and affection.
I've been fighting to get Me back ever since. Fighting my ego, fighting the doubt, fighting the sorrow.
I will fight to never bury Myself again.

*I* choose Me.
Enthusiastically.

07/29/2025

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07/29/2025

Loneliness can happen even when I do have people who love me and show up for me. The missing piece is my own Self abandonment.. the ways in which I dont put myself as a priority, the way I relax boundaries whether from compassion or people pleasing.

Then there are times I will be the one who cant show up for others and I realize it isnt that other people dont care, it's their inability to show up for themselves that causes them to be unable to show up for me (and others). Being the one who cant show up for someone you care about is a lesson in grace and compassion - for myself and others.

Most times when others cant show up for me it has nothing to do with me. It doesnt make them bad people, or even people I need to "cut out" of my life. Forgiveness is key, and forgiving doesnt mean ignoring, it means not letting the situation consume me, not assigning someone as the "villian" and letting people be who they are (this excludes violence and abuse).

I dont like the verbiage of "right" and "wrong" people because everyone has their own stuff, everyone is valid. There can be a mismatch of priorities or a mismatch of values that causes an incompatibility, but no one is "wrong."

Maybe the fresh start we need today is with ourselves. Every day is a new chance to choose something different for yourself. We dont have to succumb to our patterns if you dont want to. Simple right? Maybe the fresh start is with someone who couldn't show up for you but is a good person. Ultimately the choice is our own to make each day a little less lonely.

07/28/2025

My apologies for not having prices out yet. Stay tuned. Love you all!

07/28/2025

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