Co-Creating Transformation

12/13/2025

Such a crazy experience on my way to the store today. This hawk wasnt moving when cars went by and I could tell the wing was messed up. I passed by, torn on what to do. I turned around (snapped the photo) and searched what to do. I called a rehab guy and since the hawk had jump in to the wooded area and had made it to a low branch (maybe 5 feet off the ground) to check on it in the morning.if it was still there in the morning then I, yes me, could get it and bring it to him. This prospect both terrified and excited me. On my way back from the store it was still there. When I got home I told the kids about it and we went to see it, but it was gone. Im glad that it was well enough to leave but also sad I dont get to help it. What an experience. Sorry for the dead animal gore.

12/12/2025

Some days, the sunrise provides the only bright colors I see all day. I love the winter sunrises at my house (maybe because im actually awake to see them). Today featured a column of pink that pictures just cant do justice.
I live with hope, which Some days can make me more sad, but the alternative (despair) is no longer an option.

12/10/2025

Never thought I'd be a gym girl.
But here I am, fiending for my next fix, upset I have worked extra this week and will next week which has and will cut in to gym time.. I even have been getting on the treadmill (gasp! I read while walking, it helps)
Life changes when you finally put yourself and health first. Life changes when you challenge your own norms. It changes when you do something new and scary, pushing through that discomfort.
I do wish i had started in my 20s, but it is never too late. I had a lot of mental and emotional health to work on before I was able to make consistent strides in my physical health.
Thanks for coming along on this ride with me and consider allowing me to assist you in your wellness goals. We got this !

BOUTTA CASHEW by Bilmuri
https://youtu.be/NQ-YpCfHH-M?si=vpIHY6o08GvMvVJF

12/09/2025

Yes, and, if you're looking to make changes or make goals to achieve in 2026, im here to help!

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12/09/2025

I haven't listened to Hozier since earlier this year so I was a bit shocked (he really did hook me with that line.. "the nights are made for saying things we cant say tomorrow day" and Unknown/Nth will forever be seared in my psyche).
Dayseeker and Wind Walkers have certainty taken over my brain the past 5 months.

Music can keep you locked in the same vibrational pattern or help you keep looping the same emotions, thoughts, questions, or patterns.
Switching it up every once in awhile or trying something new can help move you beyond you current state. (I probably need to take my own advice 😬)

Losing My Color by Wind Walkers
https://youtu.be/L-ZQUb7fWuo?si=QfItQr2KVNO8wjc4

12/07/2025

A poem I wrote months ago..

My own words fail me
I love words. Your words.
Words are air.
Do they mean anything?
I trust The Word.
The Word is God.
God is Love.

12/05/2025

https://youtu.be/Itn1TdfH4q4?si=vIAReit3bFu9yvfp

If any lyrics appear to be wrong**Please note - I edited and uploaded all these lyric videos on the day the song/album was released. The lyrics you see in my...

11/28/2025

I did say I am grateful for social media, but I find it extremely disturbing that the posts I did on my children had over 200 views in a short time (my other posts are lucky to get 100 views in over a weeks time). The other disturbing metric is the percentage of men, particularly the 65+ category, which was at 30% when my other posts either have no men listed or about 1%.
Ive deleted the posts though the damage is done. I tried to choose pictures that didn't show their faces but there were a few.
Lesson learned.

11/27/2025

This may be a controversial take.. im grateful for myself.

I am the only person I will have for the rest of my life and who has been here since the beginning.
I have gotten myself through 100% of my bad days - even if with unhealthy coping mechanisms. Im still here and have mostly replaced those with healthy, life affirming choices.
I have wanted to give up, more times than i will ever admit.
Sorrow, loneliness, and anger have almost consumed me. But I conquered them every time.
For most of my life I coasted. I didnt do the work I was aware I needed to do. I was half awake. Half alive.
I know more work will come along as I continue to grow, but I have countless opportunities to sit back and enjoy the fruits of my labor.

Alot of the tools ive used along my journey originate within native cultures of lands all over the earth. I am grateful for the native people who loved the earth and tried to protect her from the colonizer. Im sorry they/we have destroyed this land, your culture, your sovereignty, your language, your ritual... all of it. If not for the native people, I wouldn't be here to be grateful for all the work ive done to become Who I Am. 💜

11/24/2025

Im grateful for all my relationships, current and past. The word relationship encompasses all different ways of relating. Im of course grateful for my friends. The few who have stayed through the years, but also ones from the past who helped shape who I am now. Ive not ever had a formal falling out with a friend, we've lost touch through job changes and time, but I hold fond memories of our seasons together. Im even grateful for romantic partners or entanglements that didnt work out. Which is all of them thus far. But what ive gained from being with those people has helped me understand my Self better. To learn my boundaries, to understand what behaviors are and are not acceptable to me, and how i need to respond or how not to respond. As sad as I have been over some of these relationships ending, I hold a place for each of them in my heart and their impact reverberates through my life story.

11/23/2025

As problematic as social media can be, it has given me things to be greatful for. When I was first divorced and finally living as myself, I found community. I found people like me and people different from me who had something to teach me. I found a deeper understanding of astrology and tarot, both tools for self development, not predicting the future. I found therapy accounts, learning what boundaries are for the first time in my life. Now I have to take it all in with moderation, because even well meaning accounts can feed in to my anxiety or other feelings that send me spiraling. It has done some good so I am grateful.