09/26/2025
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The Root of Abandonment
“Abandonment begins long before anyone actually leaves.”
As children, we are born with one sacred need: connection. Safety, love, and belonging are the ground our nervous system grows upon. But when those needs go unmet, through neglect, criticism, inconsistency, or outright absence, we receive the message: parts of me are unsafe, unlovable, or too much.
Instead of abandoning our caregivers (an impossible act for a child dependent on survival), we do the only thing we can: we abandon ourselves.
We silence our voice.
We shrink our presence.
We mask our true Self.
This is the first fracture of the psyche. The child trades authenticity for attachment.
Over time, this silencing solidifies into a survival system:
“If I leave me, maybe they won’t leave me.”
And so, the wound of abandonment doesn’t start when someone walks away; it starts the first time you walked away from yourself.
How It Shows Up Later
In childhood, it looks like:
Becoming “the good one” to earn love.
Hiding feelings to avoid rejection.
Walking on eggshells to prevent loss.
In adulthood, it looks like:
Hyper-focusing on others while ignoring your own needs.
Fear of intimacy or disappearing when things get close.
Shame when you set boundaries or show imperfection.
Obsessing over being “too much” or “not enough.”
The Way Back
Healing begins the moment you realize: the real loss wasn’t them leaving; it was you leaving you.
Notice when you abandon yourself. Do you silence your truth to keep peace? Do you numb instead of feel? That’s the fracture replaying itself.
Choose presence. Instead of running, breathe. Stay with your body. Stay with your feelings.
Reassure the child. Whisper inwardly: “I won’t leave you again.” That is the repair.
Build loyalty to your Self. Each boundary, each truth, each breath of presence is a brick in the home you’re rebuilding.
