12/18/2024
Leaving the gym having had a great workout! Week #2 Day #3 back after some health issues.
I lost 90lbs when I started this I was 297lbs. My weight fluctuated, but for the most part, I have kept it off. I still couldn’t get below 200lbs!!! 😭😡
I stayed between 205lbs - 225lbs for over a year. I was in the gym for 2-3 hours, 5-6 days a week. I ate a healthy, high protein diet. Nothing. I went to the doctor, he said I was fine, but I needed to lose weight. Duh.
I heard it all, “you need to work harder”
“stay consistent”
“most people think they are doing it right, but they’re not”
“You’re probably off with your diet”
“Exercise more, eat less. If you’re putting in the work, it will work for you!”
“Make sure you’re eating enough”
Being me, I blamed myself. They’re right. Right? If I wasn’t screwing this up somehow than I would have reached my goals by now.
I started the 75 hard challenge. Thinking, this is it. Let’s push it to the limit and be perfect with diet and exercise for 75 days and see how I transform. Nothing. Not only that but my health was declining and I was in incredible pain that was only getting worse! My energy level was decreasing. My anxiety was up and down. The doctor again said I was healthy. I went to the gynecologist, she took me seriously and ran a lot more tests.
The results weren’t ‘fine’. Cancer was a concern and it took awhile to get clear results from oncology clearing me.
The Dr took me off my anxiety meds and took my birth control out. I originally had a lot of ovarian cysts which caused concern. So now I’m being closely monitored and taking this one step at a time. At this point she believes I have PCOS (polycystic o***y syndrome) and insulin resistance. I have another appointment tomorrow to discuss it further.
I’m grateful to have answers and learn how I can move forward, knowing that I have the support I need.
It wasn’t me. There was an unseen variable. I am so incredibly encouraged now. I can do hard things, but I have to know what I’m up against! Which direction to start climbing up the mountain.
I feel validated. Heard. Seen. Hopeful.
The journey to being your healthiest self isn’t always like everybody else’s. Never give up on yourself. Don’t give up on working hard and don’t stop advocating for yourself. Keep knocking on doors until someone listens.
I may not be on someone’s made up time line. But I’m not done yet! I am right where I need to be. 💪🏻 🥰
