10/04/2026
Transparency and Authenticity are two character traits that I value above almost all others -- not just n my business, but in my walk with haShem. So today, I have to be real. Last night, I ended up in the ER.
I had an extremely stressful afternoon. My bp had been sustained 147/104 for over two hours. Extreme head pain. Facial pressure. Nausea. My vision was out of focus, and I was scared. I've had a stress-induced heart attack before; and I know the symptoms of a hypertensive crisis.
For the past three months, I've been building (and walking through; some days... crawling through) my GTM Therapy practice, establishing a platform for coaching women through their own F/F/F/F response, and writing a book on how to find safety in your own body. And yet -- there I was, 3:00am, waiting on a CT Scan to rule out a stroke, and receiving a "migraine cocktail" through an IV.
I'll be honest: I woke up this morning feeling like a fraud. I felt like Moshe (Moses), standing at the edge of a calling he didn't feel qualified for, looking back at the kingdom he fled and wondering, "Who am I to tell anyone how to be free?'
But, as I sit here today -- holding my favorite coffee mug, smelling the neroli oil on my hands, and watching birds, squirrels, and yard-cats out my dining room window -- haShem reminded me of something vital: He doesn't call the perfect; He uses the broken vessels who are willing to hand Him the pieces.
My 'Severe Migraine' diagnosis wasn't a failure of my work or my technique. It is a brutal reminder of why this work is so necessary. It was my own nervous system calling out, "I cannot *do* anymore; I just need to *be*."
If you are struggling today, if you feel like your 'setbacks' disqualify you from your purpose; if you are metaphorically shouting at haShem that you cannot go command kings because of your stutter, please look at my broken edges. There is gold in these cracks. We aren't teaching from a platform of perfection; we are leading from the front lines of the battle.
Recovery isn't a straight line. It's a series of groundings, a lot of grace, and the courage to stay when every instinct in your body screams that you should run.
I am still here. I am anchored. And if you're in a storm today ... you aren't alone.