10/04/2025
This beautiful human left the world in the early hours this morning. I am equal parts devastated, in shock, and experiencing intense amount of gratitude.
My mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer 4 weeks ago. It’s a bit of whiplash. I was able to fly east and be with her for most of her last days. I used the word surreal more times than I think I ever had in the entirety of my lifetime. To have time with her to look back and laugh and cry and tell her how much I’m going to miss her was an incredible experience. I couldn’t have scripted it better.
Her name is Fern. And with her British accent that she had mostly lost but would push through every once in a while, she would introduce herself as “Fern, as in potted plant.”
She loved flowers. She loved art. She loved Hamilton the musical and an over easy egg with a slice of fresh tomato. She loved crossword puzzles and word games. And she just loved. She loved more openly and compassionately than most. And I will never stop striving to be more like her.
I miss you already mama.
I am lucky to have been loved by you.
♥️
