01/22/2026
Self-expression didnât feel liberating to me, it often felt dangerous and scary đą
One part of me was terrified to be seen.
Another part of me deeply yearned to play⌠to have fun⌠to be fully seen.
So I developed a strategy:
⨠Become the ideal version of myself.
Perfect. Impressive. Great at everything.
But that task was impossibleâŚ
and some part of me always knew it.
As an ambitious empath, I had this deep desire to do more â
to contribute on a greater scale.
But that also meant being visible.
So my inner world lived in constant conflict:
the part that wanted expansion
vs.
the part that needed protection.
Everything began to shift when I began building a compassionate, kind, and loving relationship
with the parts of me that were once exiled⌠wounded⌠and deeply frightened.
And here I am nowâŚ
Showing up silly. Joyful. Totally messy and sharing this with you lol đ.
Learning how to ice skate. đâ¸ď¸
Because Iâve learned something:
True aliveness and fulfillment doesnât come from perfection.
Not from success.
Not from âhaving it all together.â
It comes from your ability to fully express yourself â
even when you donât feel ready,
even when youâre still learning,
even when youâre still figuring it out.
Especially then.
And yesâŚ
being able to laugh at yourself along the way helps too. đ¤
