10/06/2022
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Dear Dr. Maslow,
B”H we have three beautiful children. Shortly, they will stand under the tallis for Kol HaNearim, and we will stand alongside many other beaming parents, except inside, we are hurting deeply. For the past three
years, we have struggled to grow our family. We had no issues conceiving in the past, and we can’t explain what is wrong. It is causing a lot of strife in our marriage. My husband thinks we should feel satisfied with the family we have. He says that fertil- ity treatments are only for people who don’t have any children.
Am I being ungrateful?
Sincerely, Breaking on the Inside
Dear Breaking on the Inside;
You’ve perfectly captured the dilemma facing many couples with secondary infertility, which is your diagnosis based on what you’ve written. It may seem odd to have an infertility diagnosis after conceiving, but it is quite common...
Infertility, no matter the circumstances, brings up deep emotions and vulnerabilities. Secondary infertility has pain all its own. Feelings of shame and ungratefulness are so common, as is the uncomfortable disconnect with “appearing” normal but suffering a hidden pain. However, how we manifest our pain is as unique as we are. It is so common for couples to express their struggles in different ways. Couples may not always be on the same page when it comes to treatment, and I assure you it is not a reflection on you, your husband, or the quality of your marriage.
While I am not a therapist or marriage counselor by training, I have a lot of experience coaching couples through stressful moments. The opportunity to communicate about desires, fears, and boundaries is critical to feeling whole with what is happening to you as indi- viduals and as a couple - whether or not you pursue treatment. If the years of stress and sadness have created a shell too thick to peel away, professional counseling may help you both come to a place of mutual understanding.
Whether or not you are blessed with the nachas another child under the tallis next year, it is my prayer that you are blessed with nachas ruach, understanding, and peace in your home.
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