04/17/2026
I am nothing if not ✨here✨.
Every day my eyes crack open to the sun rising on a new day and I am asked once more to arrive. So I wrench myself out of the dream state, the safe comfort of my bed, and into my life, into my humanity, into my body and I begin to feel a great many things pressing in on me.
The luscious, pounding throb of being human. It tastes like peach juice dripping down my throat, stinging the cracks of my lips. Nourishing me with each delicious bite.
The delirious fear threatening in every single moment to overwhelm me. My hands tingle with it, my joints ache with it, my chest so tight I can scarcely get a breath.
The unadulterated rage of capitalism, patriarchy, politicians committing egregious crimes, systems designed to f**k us figuratively and literally and no one doing anything about it. Who will protect the children?? Why is no one protecting the children???
The bliss of the children. The nuzzle of a newborn into my neck and the giggles of my babies finally getting along for once. The ache of them growing another inch taller.
All of these things ask again and again to be seen! Felt! Wrestled with in injurious intensity!
You will not make it out of this alive! they say. This life will kill you! Why not live it as fully as you can?!
And I realize with a sinking dread | gratitude, they’re right! I will not survive this! And to feel is the work.
And so I feel it all, the grit, the or****ic peak and valley of being, the love, the loathing, the obsession, the joy, the pain, the grief, the disappointment… and I crash into my bed each day to repose for another chance at being tomorrow.
Hello, human. Welcome to being. It’s great here.