21/10/2022
One year ago I took in my last snuggles with Clara before she became a big sister.
It feels like a mother world thinking back to it.
I had so many emotions around baby 2 joining our family and how it would look.
Would I be a good mama to both kids? How would we balance it all? How would jordo and I still find time? How do you share your love? What will this transition look like in our family?
My mind was racing with a million thoughts. I felt excited, overjoyed, yet fearful and uncertain all at the same time.
One year later I can look back on that time and tell the mama pictured it worked out. It hasn’t been perfect, everyday you are learning but you show both kids they are loved everyday and you continue to figure it out. You’re doing your best, and doing what works and feels good for your family. Everything ebbs and flows. Watching Clara as a big sister has been magical and also full of “Clara be kind to gryff” as she herself is also figuring out the big sister title. The family is full of love, joy and you are doing it.
I’m proud of myself. This past year has been challenging and beautiful, having Gryff here has been the best addition to our little family.
I wish I could squeeze myself back in this moment and say “it will be a journey but you will make it through mama.” #