06/11/2025
Have you ever looked at a photo and thought: “Oh, I am not posting this”
I was reflecting on May and realized it was a great month, yet I was not feeling my best.
Not because I wasn’t having fun. Not because I didn’t feel cute in the moment. But because when I looked at these pics later, all I could think was, “Ugh… you can tell I’ve gained weight.”
And yeah… I have.
The past 6-8 months life got lifey. Stress hit hard, and in the middle of all the stress, I fell hard into old habits. Emotional eating grabbed me by the hair and made me her b*tch.
Even though I kept I kept training, I kept coaching my amazing clients who are crushing it; behind the scenes, I hadn’t taken care of my own emotional needs. Last month I was honest with myself and recognized no amount of squats, reps, or macros could fix what was going on emotionally
I am a coach, I know how to fix the weight issue. But what I needed wasn’t a macro plan-not when I was using food to push down emotions I hadn’t even named yet. So I sat with my emotions, worked through what I was really running from.
Now that I’m learning to feel my emotions, the emotional eating is under control (crazy how that works), but I’m left with the aftermath—weight gain, shame, and a body that needs healing. Not punishment.
And although I know how to lose weight. When your heart and head are heavy, sometimes jumping into macros or any type of plan is like trying to put a Band-Aid on a bullet wound. So instead of diving into fat loss, I chose:
💛 Therapy
💛 Nourishment
💛 Gentle movement
💛 Self-respect
💛 Speaking kindly to myself
💛 Wearing the bikini anyway
I’m slowly getting back to macro tracking, but I’m learning to love my body for surviving what my mind went through.
You, I see you. You are not broken. You’re human. And you’re worthy of love, respect, and cute bikini pics—exactly as you are.. and so am I. 🫶🏼