31/12/2023
Sometimes you can be so focused on a goal that you don’t realize you’re using it as a crutch to avoid pain..
Pain can be a powerful motivator, but it can also force you to ignore really unhealthy habits you’ve employed in your arsenal to sustain the status quo.
2023 gutted me from the inside out.
It allowed me to see a void staring back at me in the mirror.
I was disappointed in myself for allowing so many people to walk over me, in a last ditch effort to avoid conflict, and maintain their validation.
My business was doing record breaking six figure months, but I was working nonstop, and was burnt out on both ends.
My family life was entirely unbalanced, and I was seemingly failing as a wife, a friend, and family member.
Many of my relationships crumbled and withered away when I attempted to assert boundaries…leaving me to question my placements of refuge.
After much self reflection, I chose to really go back to my roots and pray with feverish intention.
I isolated myself and truly removed myself from everything that I thought made me feel superior.
I purged myself of all the things that fed my ego..
An ego death can humble you in ways that you never knew you needed.
When everything seems to be falling apart around you, it is a canon event that is required to grow.
Don’t be angry, spiteful, or disconnected..be grateful for the lesson in humility.
You are flawed, you will make mistakes, you will accept less than you deserve at times, but your core values will always shine true.
When all else fails pray…and then choose to love them anyway.
The best way to reap your blessings is not in what you do, but how you react to stimuli.
If you are kind remain kind…circumstances should not change the core of who you are.
Simply pray for their eventual growth and focus on your own journey to become the best being you can be.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to grow from my mistakes, and really focus on being centered, loving, and kind.
I was raised in a dark place so I know what it feels like to be utterly alone.
If I love you…you will feel it in your bones..
Breathe and slow down…work will be there when you return…
Employ a soft life in 2024..
