19/05/2022
I don’t like before and after pictures.
Why? Because my after? That was at the height of a terrible relationship to food, my body and myself.
I was regularly restricting and binging. Feeling bloated half the time and hungry the other half.
I was obsessed with food, and my weight and hated my body in both the first two photo grids. I was exercising to punish myself for what I had eaten and felt awful most of the time.
Sure, my body looks good in the after and I have the beginnings of a six pack, but the blow to my mental health is what you don’t see. The six pack wasn’t worth the trauma I put myself through to get there.
You can’t look at someone’s body and think you know the full story. Chasing after weight loss was the worst thing I did for my health.
Focusing on feeling good in my body was what saved me. Intuitive eating combined with what I knew from studying nutrition saved me. Practicing yoga and focusing on my thoughts and connecting to my body saved me.
Honestly, I can look at each of these pictures now and see a beautiful woman. I am so much more than my body!!
The third set of pictures is me most recently, looking almost the same, but night and day different in my mind.
The last picture of me is my favorite because I can see my happiness and beauty. This girl doesn’t obsess about food anymore and has so much more mental space available for creating and living a life of freedom and joy.
I’m not saying you shouldn’t chase after weight loss. I’m a personal trainer and nutrition coach after all. 😉
I’m just saying think about your mental state. How’s your relationship with food? How do you feel/think about your body/self?
I don’t want to help you lose weight (though that does happen on the journey depending on where you’re at), but I DO want to help you heal your relationship to food and yourself. I want to help you build strength and confidence! I want to help you gain more energy and feel better in your body.