11/19/2025
Alignment Beats Fear 100-0
The voice between my hear holes kept telling me if I want to succeed I need to follow the rules and, by all means, make sure everyone is never not pleased around me. I observed, I took notes, I saw what was “working” for those in my orbit and continuously chose paths my intuition was mom voice yelling at me not to go down.
Be a kind, chameleon of a human (check), serve everyone around you but yourself (check), get yourself educated and find a job that has benefits (check), land that good looking soul mate and have adorable babies (checkity check check). With every big life goal successfully in order, why is it that my spark completely blew out?
The great Niki Minaj recently speared my core with these words, “everybody dies, but not everybody lives,” & I can’t accept that I’m just out here living to die. I’d like to start legit living, thanks. I don’t mean living as in being reckless and partying my elder millennial face off, I mean full on LIVING with peace in my mind and joy shining, care bear style, out of my gorgeous heart.
Living means feeling the morning sun smooch my face, fishing by a slow moving fog blanketed river, full body grooving to 24k Magic, solo naked sunbathing on my porch…the little things. Living in a way that brings me the greatest health, wealth, love, and perfect self expression. Living for me.
Up until now my decisions (especially with my career) have been based on me forcing paths out of fear with minuscule alignment and faith. And while my favorite pastime is to frantically search for answers outside of myself, I am finding my way to complete self trust. I’m now choosing to frolic towards whatever flickers my sparky center.
It’s time I stop letting fear win and let alignment bring it home.
This is me writing for fun, because it feels aligned in my soul, and I’ve already felt a few flickers!! Look at me go!
