01/23/2026
Hi friends 🤍
After what feels like a long pause, I’m back.
These past months have been a quiet kind of unraveling, the kind you can’t always explain, even to the people who love you. Postpartum was part of it. Grief was part of it. And so was the way relationships shifted. Some ended without closure. Some left questions that never got answered. Some tenderness never got to fully heal.
I didn’t always understand why certain things felt so activating, why I was reacting the way I was, why my nervous system stayed braced like I was still waiting for something to happen.
And then the clarity didn’t arrive in my mind first. It arrived in my body.
Through breath, meditation, and heart-opening work, there was a moment my chest finally unclenched. And I realized I’d been carrying old patterns like they were my identity. Over-functioning. Self-abandonment. “Being strong” as my default language.
When it became conscious, it felt like a death. The version of me built for survival began to dissolve. And for a while, I didn’t recognize who I was without the roles, the armor, the constant holding.
So yes, I’m reinventing myself in real time. I’m still in the in-between, still meeting who I am now.
I’m also grateful for the strange, beautiful ways healing meets us, even through technology. With a little help from AI, I was able to generate this image of my present self with my younger self, and it’s the picture I didn’t know I needed.
So here’s what I want to say to that little girl.
I love you.
You’re a Guerrera, a warrior, a woman who keeps going even when it’s hard.
You did the best you could.
And I’m here now, not to abandon you, but to choose you again and again.
And this is what’s been inspiring the book I’m writing now, about inherited patterns, inner child healing, and the somatic truth that the body remembers, even when the mind can’t fully narrate the story.
If you’ve ever had to grieve a version of you that’s no longer here, if you’ve ever loved something that never got closure, if you’ve ever felt yourself outgrowing what once felt like home, I see you.
I’m back. Softer. Clearer. More honest than before. 🤍🌙
